And so you think it's over...
Last thing on my mind...
"i carved your name into this bullet so everyone will know you were the last thing going through my head.. a Quote that just got to me.
It must have been that painful to take ones own life. And let everyone know that it was caused by one person alone. Sometimes someone gets to you that much that one person that can make you sore tremendously and you have nothing else to do but wait for it to go away. But will it ever go away? Will you at some point stop hurting? I went up to the deck early this morning just to see the sun rise to see that another day has risen and that I have survived another day. You sometimes think it’s over and that you have moved on then something just hits you and reminds you how it feels all over again. It may be crazy but how can you explain how it feels or how it hurts or how are you still reminded of what it felt when you had wonderful time with someone, as if it was all preserved in your heart as if the ice that keeps everything frozen all of a sudden melts and unleashes a bacteria that infects your whole body and soul. I have kept you safe in a confined place in my heart what awakens you and continuously haunt me in my dreams. You have caused me enough misery and yet you still linger in my mind you keep me asking why and I just can’t seem to get an answer. Perhaps I thought I felt contented and there was nothing more I thought I was already safe when I was with you. My fear is simply reoccurring I can’t seem to get that longing for you out of my system again…My heart simply continues to break even after it has learned to love and lose again. Love has become a burden when it should set you free it traps you in a state where you are helpless.
"i carved your name into this bullet so everyone will know you were the last thing going through my head.. a Quote that just got to me.
It must have been that painful to take ones own life. And let everyone know that it was caused by one person alone. Sometimes someone gets to you that much that one person that can make you sore tremendously and you have nothing else to do but wait for it to go away. But will it ever go away? Will you at some point stop hurting? I went up to the deck early this morning just to see the sun rise to see that another day has risen and that I have survived another day. You sometimes think it’s over and that you have moved on then something just hits you and reminds you how it feels all over again. It may be crazy but how can you explain how it feels or how it hurts or how are you still reminded of what it felt when you had wonderful time with someone, as if it was all preserved in your heart as if the ice that keeps everything frozen all of a sudden melts and unleashes a bacteria that infects your whole body and soul. I have kept you safe in a confined place in my heart what awakens you and continuously haunt me in my dreams. You have caused me enough misery and yet you still linger in my mind you keep me asking why and I just can’t seem to get an answer. Perhaps I thought I felt contented and there was nothing more I thought I was already safe when I was with you. My fear is simply reoccurring I can’t seem to get that longing for you out of my system again…My heart simply continues to break even after it has learned to love and lose again. Love has become a burden when it should set you free it traps you in a state where you are helpless.