Be happy with me...
My thoughts are flying wondering about things and how I want life to be. A part of me feels that my truths are starting to catch up on me and another part wants to make amends for certain foolishness justified by my so-called love but then I realize what for. Maybe I want to be able to free myself from all of it realizing my mistakes and being sorry for it I guess that’s what makes a difference. I’m having my good nature attack. I’m sure what I want to say doesn’t even matter to the person I want to express my feelings of remorse to so why bother but I always feel it’s still the right thing to do. The question is for whom am I doing it? Well I think I’m doing it for myself. With all the madness that I’ve come across this past year I must have done something right to be in this state of happiness and for my life to go as I hoped it to be. Somehow I guess I want to just close it and live a wonderful life but maybe sometimes it’s enough that you already feel sorry for them and hope to God that you won’t be foolish to do the same thing over specially those mistakes that you hurt yourself more.
To see life and live life we come to certain realizations that can really changes us. There will be people coming in and out in your life and you realize without them probably knowing how much they have moved your heart. And those who see you the same way remain in your life and for those you have lost those you valued even with all those differences will always have that special place in your heart that when you see them along the way you smile at them to somehow let them know that there is no bitterness in your heart even when things had to end.
I’m eager to learn more to know more about life, people and what’s to come. I’m happy with how things are I just can’t wait for what’s next. I guess they we’re right to say I was lucky now it’s just up to me to make my luck work. I know it’s not just pure luck there has to be God’s involvement. I may not have all that I want but I have all that I need.