Stop trying to catch my eyes...
Why do you have to even try to look me in the eye what do you want to see? Do you want to see my pain…I can’t bear it anymore and I’m doing this again because you ask me to, I just feel helpless and can’t wait to leave this place? You make me feel like hell. Do you even know completely what I’m going through? You tell me of your pain and how about my pain? Don’t think I don’t know what was about to happen and how I would feel after everything. But up until now I’m doing this just to prove you one thing, that I would do everything for you to be happy. My heart is being torn to decide to leave or to stay. If only she loved you I wouldn’t go through this. If only she was there for you I wouldn’t even go through this…You’re in love with someone who doesn’t love you. You will tell yourself that it’s your fault but if she loves you she wouldn’t have left. She should have tried to understand what you’re going through. You being that wounded child and what you really needed. I just want to see you happy that’s why even when I knew I was going to be hurt after I still did because I wanted to be there for you, to ease your pain to make you forget. I hate her for leaving you!!! I hate her for not loving you as much…I hate her because she’s all you can see. I hate myself for being this way.