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So I have this great life and yet I don't feel satisfied. Has anyone else got that problem? I have found out that my younger brother is drinking heavily and driving to add to it. I hate to be the bitch but he needs to cut that shit out. Not to mention his brother-not Eric-got introuble a week ago because of underage drinking. you would of thought he learned from that one. So I must be the big bitchy sister and confront him about it this weekend.
I am doing good with the whole guy thing, but I have a nagging in the back of my mind. I am soooo scared to trust again. It's like I have this little lock box that Im not willing to open, but somehow someone is picking into it. Do I let that go because Im terrified of getting broken agian? Or do I hold on to it for all that it's worth. You know he really is a great guy. SOmeone that believes Im beautiful, and can make me smile and laugh, and comforts me when im crying. He truly cares. Then again Ive been down that road before and I just can't get myself to let that part of me go. Maybe time will cure all ills right?
Im growing up and it still scares the shit out of me. I will have a fulltime job this summer. AN apartment with a great, awesome spectacular girl, and im even considering moving in next semester with a perfect guy....that is if we last that long.
I hate to be so down with my life really is so up, but i am concerned about my future and im not really sure if im heading in the right direction. Any guidance out there for me?
I must retire to bed, long day ahead tomorrow and this whole asthma thing is dragging me down.
Night all.
I am doing good with the whole guy thing, but I have a nagging in the back of my mind. I am soooo scared to trust again. It's like I have this little lock box that Im not willing to open, but somehow someone is picking into it. Do I let that go because Im terrified of getting broken agian? Or do I hold on to it for all that it's worth. You know he really is a great guy. SOmeone that believes Im beautiful, and can make me smile and laugh, and comforts me when im crying. He truly cares. Then again Ive been down that road before and I just can't get myself to let that part of me go. Maybe time will cure all ills right?
Im growing up and it still scares the shit out of me. I will have a fulltime job this summer. AN apartment with a great, awesome spectacular girl, and im even considering moving in next semester with a perfect guy....that is if we last that long.
I hate to be so down with my life really is so up, but i am concerned about my future and im not really sure if im heading in the right direction. Any guidance out there for me?
I must retire to bed, long day ahead tomorrow and this whole asthma thing is dragging me down.
Night all.