HAPPY??
yes i'm happy..and i'm confused at the same time..how can u love two people?thats what she asked me..and all i could say was i don't,i love everyone..it never dies..i fall in love and it never goes away..i may not be attracted to some people anymore but the love is still there..i still care..i still worrie..i know i need to just let people go and not think about them anymore but i just don't work that way..if i could ever figure out a way to just turn off my feelings for my ex's i would because it would save everyone alot of heart ache and mixed feelings...sex makes everything so much more intense.is there such a thing as sex with no feelings?maybe no feelings during the sex but you do feel something after..weather you feel happy or sad or mad at the other person or mad at your self you always feel something after..but during the sex..you feel nothing but sublime..as your having that amazing orgasm or giving someone an amazing orgasm you feel like everything is right in the world..it's always the after math that you not only don't want to feel but not want to deal with at all..if i could sleep with who ever and when ever i wanted to and still come home to my wife and everything be ok i would..and i would still sleep with my wife as well..the sex is not bad..it's the thrill of chasing someone or being chased and getting what you want that drives me it seems..once i get it..sometimes i find it's not what i wanted..to rough or not rough enough or no feelings or to many feelings...fuck you sex..fuck you in the ass with a spoon in the back of a vw beetle...blah..my addiction is taking over my mind..i need something else to put in it..