so much
so much to do and no time to do it..i have alot going on in my life now a days.i wish i had not stopped writing.i have been having alot of problems with my health but i have still been working and moving forward..i don't want to be the way i was when i was yonger..seemed like i just wanted a free ride..now i want to work for alot of things.i want to go back to school very badly but i'm afraid i'm going to struggle alot.i want to be a doctor tho.i want to be a ear, nose, and throat surgen,sleep specialist and i know it's going to take forever but it's all i wanna do..i don't want to work as a sleep tech for the next 20yrs..just the next 10 or 15..how ever long it takes to do school.i know it's gonna be at least 10yrs just to get my doctorate.i will get there tho.i know it seems like i'm shooting for the moon but it's really a matter of money and time..i want to do it and that is always the hard part...getting me to want to do something is the key..if i dont wanna do it i probly wont but i want this.i want it bad.i do love what i do now but i want to do more and i want more people to listen to me.i feel like no one listens to me cuz i'm not a doctor.like i don't know what i'm talking about just cuz i'm not a doctor..fuck that..i can be a fuckin doctor..lol..it may take me a lil longer then most but i'll do it. :) mark my words..