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time does not wait
i'm no longer moving to washington. a whole shit load of things happened that toppled the plans of moving to wa. its a complete bittersweet feeling. the sweet isnt as sweet without the bitter. unfortunately the bitter wouldn't be so bitter if there wasn't sweet. my best friend Tom Gardner. guilt of abandoning another person i cherish along with others in hawaii. i do this a lot. its something i have no control over. i'm sorry to everyone. darkness crawls over again.
I AM: something i dont know
I KNOW: not what i am
I WANT: my friends to occupy one city
I HAVE: a wish.
I WISH: things weren't so fucked up
I HATE: my thoughts
I MISS: people that make me smile.
I FEAR: that something will always be missing
I HEAR: someone calling
I SEARCH: for another way out
I WONDER: if there is really a 'right'
I REGRET: a lot of things.
I LOVE: the fact that love is a strong word
I ACHE: for tranquility
I CARE: about things i shouldn't
I ALWAYS: think
I AM NOT: moving to washington
I DANCE(d): hm.
I SING: with erik melvin
I CRY: when the time is right
I DO NOT ALWAYS: think clearly
I FIGHT: for myself
I WRITE: from within
I LOS(t)E: everything when i move
I CONFUSE: the simple minded
I LISTEN: to people that need to be listened to
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: in the right hemisphere of my brain
I NEED: to rid of the people that kill me
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: happiness not being a concern
I SHOULD: not think anymore
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stats...
x. name = dERRICK
x. birthday = 111185
x. piercing = none
x. tattoos = fake ones
x. height = 5'6" or somethin
x. shoe size = 7 1/2 - 9
x. hair color = bleached here red there. looks like fire
x. length = 2 inches
x. siblings = Destiny-Jack
x. pets = Kim Chee my beta fish
last...
x. movie you rented = original sin
x. movie you bought = dont remember maybe slc punk
x. song you listened to = twilight
x. song that was stuck in your head = lola she was a showgirl
x. song you've downloaded = dont remember
x. cd you bought = vanessa carlton+avril lavigne
x. cd you listened to = nofx punk in drublic
x. person you've called = tom g
x. person that's called you = tom g
x. tv show you've watched = smallville
x. person you were thinking of = i dont stop thinking its an infinite answer
do...
x. you have a crush on someone? = no
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = yes, but sometimes not really
x. you think about suicide = yes
x. you believe in online dating = no
x. others find you attractive = no
x. you want more piercings = no
x. you want more tattoos = no
x. you drink = very special occasions. lately- tequila rose, fuzzy nipples, and peach shnapps (bitch drink)
x. you do drugs = no, fuck off
x. you smoke = secondary
x. you like cleaning = minds of their own thoughts
x. you like roller coasters = love roller coasters. fuck
x. you write in cursive or print = print, cursive for fun
x. you carry a donor card = nope
for or against...
x. long distance relationships = they work for me, but girls aren't capable of it and i have yet to find one that is
x. using someone = against that
x. suicide = depends
x. killing people = who?
x. teenage smoking = don't care
x. doing drugs = against it
x. premarital sex = it happens.
x. driving drunk = stupid
x. gay/lesbian relationships = whatever floats
x. soap operas = its great to watch over exagerated acting
favorite...
x. food = i dont have a favorite food.
x. song = favorites are difficult
x. thing to do = think
x. thing to talk about = depends on the other side
x. sports = computer
x. drinks = i can't think
x. clothes = too many thoughts to pick one out that best suit these questions
x. movies = shit
x. band = so many many many
x. holiday = christmas
x. cars = the ones that i like
have you...
x. ever cried over a girl = yes
x. ever cried over a boy = i'd usually type something silly but i'm not in the mood.
x. ever lied to someone = i dont lie. who needs lies when there are loopholes
x. ever been in a fist fight = yes
x. ever been arrested = no
what...
x. shampoo do you use = biolage color care
x. perfume do you use = one that smells pretty
x. shoes do you wear = chucks n pumas
x. are you scared of = being alone
number...
x. of times I have been in love? = i'm sure it wasn't. chemical mix
x. of times I have had my heart broken? = 601352.532
x. of hearts I have broken? = sorry.
x. of boys I have kissed? = 50002
x. of girls I have kissed? = dont know
x. of men I've slept with? = 49998
x. of girls I've slept with? = didn't sleep with em.
x. of continents I have lived in? = none
x. of drugs taken illegally? = nonoo nononono
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = dont know who to trust- everyone changes on me
x. of people I consider my enemies? enemy shnenemy
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? = which high school.
x. of cd's that I own? = 2.7
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = aha. they never found us.
x. of scars on my body? = scars are everywhere.
x. of things in my past that I regret? = stupid questions
* * * * *
*5 things you are wearing*
1. boxers
2. beater
3. necklace
4. ring
5. black fingernail polish
*5 things you can see*
1. evil
2. shadows created by artificial light
3. pendulum
4. first hand
5. second reaching 11
*5 things you are doing right now*
1. contemplating
2. sorting
3. thinking
4. thinking a bit more
5. burning
*5 things you ate in the last 24 hours*
1. pills
2. my fingers
3. my arms
4. my heart
5. my cerebral cortex
*5 things you did so far today*
1. drove around
2. watched blue crush
3. drove around
4. -
5. -
*5 things you can hear right now*
1. silence
2. -
3. ---
4. ---
5. ---
*5 colors you can see*
1. black
2. black
3. black
4. black
5. black
nifty how people spin around and around...you never now what side you're conversing with.
i'm no longer moving to washington. a whole shit load of things happened that toppled the plans of moving to wa. its a complete bittersweet feeling. the sweet isnt as sweet without the bitter. unfortunately the bitter wouldn't be so bitter if there wasn't sweet. my best friend Tom Gardner. guilt of abandoning another person i cherish along with others in hawaii. i do this a lot. its something i have no control over. i'm sorry to everyone. darkness crawls over again.
I AM: something i dont know
I KNOW: not what i am
I WANT: my friends to occupy one city
I HAVE: a wish.
I WISH: things weren't so fucked up
I HATE: my thoughts
I MISS: people that make me smile.
I FEAR: that something will always be missing
I HEAR: someone calling
I SEARCH: for another way out
I WONDER: if there is really a 'right'
I REGRET: a lot of things.
I LOVE: the fact that love is a strong word
I ACHE: for tranquility
I CARE: about things i shouldn't
I ALWAYS: think
I AM NOT: moving to washington
I DANCE(d): hm.
I SING: with erik melvin
I CRY: when the time is right
I DO NOT ALWAYS: think clearly
I FIGHT: for myself
I WRITE: from within
I LOS(t)E: everything when i move
I CONFUSE: the simple minded
I LISTEN: to people that need to be listened to
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: in the right hemisphere of my brain
I NEED: to rid of the people that kill me
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: happiness not being a concern
I SHOULD: not think anymore
----------------------------------------
stats...
x. name = dERRICK
x. birthday = 111185
x. piercing = none
x. tattoos = fake ones
x. height = 5'6" or somethin
x. shoe size = 7 1/2 - 9
x. hair color = bleached here red there. looks like fire
x. length = 2 inches
x. siblings = Destiny-Jack
x. pets = Kim Chee my beta fish
last...
x. movie you rented = original sin
x. movie you bought = dont remember maybe slc punk
x. song you listened to = twilight
x. song that was stuck in your head = lola she was a showgirl
x. song you've downloaded = dont remember
x. cd you bought = vanessa carlton+avril lavigne
x. cd you listened to = nofx punk in drublic
x. person you've called = tom g
x. person that's called you = tom g
x. tv show you've watched = smallville
x. person you were thinking of = i dont stop thinking its an infinite answer
do...
x. you have a crush on someone? = no
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = yes, but sometimes not really
x. you think about suicide = yes
x. you believe in online dating = no
x. others find you attractive = no
x. you want more piercings = no
x. you want more tattoos = no
x. you drink = very special occasions. lately- tequila rose, fuzzy nipples, and peach shnapps (bitch drink)
x. you do drugs = no, fuck off
x. you smoke = secondary
x. you like cleaning = minds of their own thoughts
x. you like roller coasters = love roller coasters. fuck
x. you write in cursive or print = print, cursive for fun
x. you carry a donor card = nope
for or against...
x. long distance relationships = they work for me, but girls aren't capable of it and i have yet to find one that is
x. using someone = against that
x. suicide = depends
x. killing people = who?
x. teenage smoking = don't care
x. doing drugs = against it
x. premarital sex = it happens.
x. driving drunk = stupid
x. gay/lesbian relationships = whatever floats
x. soap operas = its great to watch over exagerated acting
favorite...
x. food = i dont have a favorite food.
x. song = favorites are difficult
x. thing to do = think
x. thing to talk about = depends on the other side
x. sports = computer
x. drinks = i can't think
x. clothes = too many thoughts to pick one out that best suit these questions
x. movies = shit
x. band = so many many many
x. holiday = christmas
x. cars = the ones that i like
have you...
x. ever cried over a girl = yes
x. ever cried over a boy = i'd usually type something silly but i'm not in the mood.
x. ever lied to someone = i dont lie. who needs lies when there are loopholes
x. ever been in a fist fight = yes
x. ever been arrested = no
what...
x. shampoo do you use = biolage color care
x. perfume do you use = one that smells pretty
x. shoes do you wear = chucks n pumas
x. are you scared of = being alone
number...
x. of times I have been in love? = i'm sure it wasn't. chemical mix
x. of times I have had my heart broken? = 601352.532
x. of hearts I have broken? = sorry.
x. of boys I have kissed? = 50002
x. of girls I have kissed? = dont know
x. of men I've slept with? = 49998
x. of girls I've slept with? = didn't sleep with em.
x. of continents I have lived in? = none
x. of drugs taken illegally? = nonoo nononono
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = dont know who to trust- everyone changes on me
x. of people I consider my enemies? enemy shnenemy
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? = which high school.
x. of cd's that I own? = 2.7
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = aha. they never found us.
x. of scars on my body? = scars are everywhere.
x. of things in my past that I regret? = stupid questions
* * * * *
*5 things you are wearing*
1. boxers
2. beater
3. necklace
4. ring
5. black fingernail polish
*5 things you can see*
1. evil
2. shadows created by artificial light
3. pendulum
4. first hand
5. second reaching 11
*5 things you are doing right now*
1. contemplating
2. sorting
3. thinking
4. thinking a bit more
5. burning
*5 things you ate in the last 24 hours*
1. pills
2. my fingers
3. my arms
4. my heart
5. my cerebral cortex
*5 things you did so far today*
1. drove around
2. watched blue crush
3. drove around
4. -
5. -
*5 things you can hear right now*
1. silence
2. -
3. ---
4. ---
5. ---
*5 colors you can see*
1. black
2. black
3. black
4. black
5. black
nifty how people spin around and around...you never now what side you're conversing with.