Hey there its me !!
Hey there everyone whats up ? not a whole lot going on over here. I just watched Dr. Phil with my aunt. You would never drink again after seeing that cause that guy was an alcoholic who just about drank himself to death and when he did his wife, who had an anger management problem, would beat the living hell out of him everytime pushing him down stairs and everything in front of their daughters!! i would never do that. i never wana be a bad parent ever. im gonna be mother of the centuries when i have kids. i never wanan do anything to hurt them ever and im not gonna let my husband (whenever i end up getting married) do that to them either causei can assure you that if he does it even once, he will be gone just like that i will not tolerate that. Of course i hope i never have to worry about that cause i got Mr. Wonderful Jeremiah. He's so great the emails he leaves and the little messages when i'm sleeping, its just so great to hear from him. i'm really happy. he's my kinda guy and there aint no way that im giving this one up for anything in the world. He's gonna spend a few hours with me tomorrow that he could be using to sleep cause hes gonna have to work from 12 midnight to 8 am, and hes gonna come over here at like 7pm and just be with me till he has to go to work. that is so sweet of him. and we joke all the time and call eachother names and everything and its just real cute and everything. Im just so darn unbelievably happy right now having him in my life and i dont want it to ever end. he just makes me feel really good. i know its only been a couple weeks but it just feels like i've known him forever though and i love that. we talked about getting all these kinds of dogs and things like that and i think we are gonna be together forever as long as he feels the same way too cause id love to spend my time and my life with him. I know it may seem sudden but i beleive in love at first site and i believe that this is just that cause i think im in love with him already. i just wonder if he may feel the same but i dont wanna rush though and mess this perfect realtionship that we do have already. GOd hes so amazing. but hey thats enough of that im sure ya'll dont care but i just had to tel lya'll cause im so happy !! anyways, im moving back with my mom soon. we were approved by section 8 ( government financial assistant) and we are getting like 600 a month from them so we can get an aprtment and thats just so awesome cause we need it so bad. we're poor and thats how it is and i aint ashamed of it one bit. things went bad in my life. it happens to the best of them. i dont wanna be treated or looked at any different for it either. i know what its been like to wonder how bills would be paid and if you were gonna eat that day or not i know how that is i've been there before. so if theres anyone out there who may think their lives are bad and they got it so hard when they get like 4 cars for each kid that their parents keep buying them or designer clothes that their parents buy them all the time or take em outeverynight and give them everything they need, then i will explain to you what my life has been like and then we'll see whos is worse. i bet mine is. But ya know whatever, its taught me things others will never learn and im glad for that. it gives me the incentive to do better with my life and to be a better person for it and im proud of that. i work hard for what i have thats why i aint got a car yet cause im buying it on my own no ones helping me. my moms not buying me anything i've been buying the things i need like clothes and shampoo and things when i was living with her cause if i wanted it i had to buy it myself. i couldnt go ask mom for it cause i knew she had no money so i never asked for anything. i've gotten frustruated al lthe time with her i've yelled at her and just gotten so upset asking her why we were so poor why i couldnt have what the other kids had and al lthat but it never got anywhere there was no point to me whining and complaining so i quit it. But im gonna do better. not that my mom wasnt a good mom cause she was but im gonna do better. my kids are gonna work for the things they want. i will give them the essentials but they are buying there own cars and cell phones and designer clothes. i'll give them a bed to sleep in and food in theere stomachs and clothes on there backs and a god education. thats all they need. thats all any of us need but some just wont settle for that cause they've been spoiled there whole lives and there so used to that lifestyle that if it changed they'd think that the world was over. so theres a good thing for all u spoiled kids to read when you think ur life is hard cause you couldnt have that $75 dollar shirt or $100 shoes or whatever. Anyways, im sick of thinking about that depressing stuff. im just gonna think about how good things are gonna get once im back with mom and thefact that i have the most wonderful man in the world and the great life i got ahead of me!! Goodnight everyone!!