Overwhelmed but Content
That sums up everything. I can't say I am particularly happy right now, but I am not sad either. I am content. It's weird, but I like it. It's been too long since the last time I wrote something here. I am typing like a fiend, but there to too much to say so much has happened and I curse the fact i do not write enough for myself.
The dreamery that has been my world right now is grand. Things are poulled together and despite some struggle still, I've found my calm. Mostly.
Thanksgiving is soon and I have so much to be thankful for.
I got the job with Sprouts. Yeah I have had it for about three months now and I love my work. i a doing graphic design and basically am managing the office. We are ina warehouse now with offices inside one of which is mine. I have my own office More than money, this means something to me i cannot describe. I feel like I am important i suppose. I feel established and like I am where I am supposed to be.
Things with Dave have been amazing too. I feel like we are growing closer and our relationship is reflecting that/ I feel like things are a lot more solid than ever. The only thing I fear is that I love him so much I would do anything to protect him, even if that means hurting him. Weird huh? How we will do anything to make sure the ones we love are happy and safe even if that means hurting them. Anywho... He wants to move in with Jeanna and I in Jan. this excites and terrifies me. I hope things will work out with him here. This will be the real test I think to see if we do in fact belong together.
This is my favorite time of year. I say that all the time but I really mean it. I feel most alive in the dark. I feel awake and charged physically and spiritually.
I am truly content.
The dreamery that has been my world right now is grand. Things are poulled together and despite some struggle still, I've found my calm. Mostly.
Thanksgiving is soon and I have so much to be thankful for.
I got the job with Sprouts. Yeah I have had it for about three months now and I love my work. i a doing graphic design and basically am managing the office. We are ina warehouse now with offices inside one of which is mine. I have my own office More than money, this means something to me i cannot describe. I feel like I am important i suppose. I feel established and like I am where I am supposed to be.
Things with Dave have been amazing too. I feel like we are growing closer and our relationship is reflecting that/ I feel like things are a lot more solid than ever. The only thing I fear is that I love him so much I would do anything to protect him, even if that means hurting him. Weird huh? How we will do anything to make sure the ones we love are happy and safe even if that means hurting them. Anywho... He wants to move in with Jeanna and I in Jan. this excites and terrifies me. I hope things will work out with him here. This will be the real test I think to see if we do in fact belong together.
This is my favorite time of year. I say that all the time but I really mean it. I feel most alive in the dark. I feel awake and charged physically and spiritually.
I am truly content.