"Sometimes, in a way, it's like they know.."
My mom called me last night at 11pm. I knew something had to be wrong, the fact being that she wouldn't call me that late for nothing.
"Hey... is everything okay?"
"No."
"What's wrong?"
"*sigh* Your dad had a heart attack tonight and he died."
When she first said 'no' I was honestly expecting her to tell me that Igor had killed himself. After he left my work on Monday I just felt... odd. I don't know. I couldn't explain it to my mom, but something just didn't feel right. Then after my mom left a message on my home phone saying that Dad called her, saying that he was picking up Roman and they were going to go buy Halloween candy, I started to feel like maybe I was wrong to worry, that maybe he took our conversation as the wake up he needed to start acting like a dad again.
I'm... shocked? I don't know.. I cried a couple tears, I think only because when I got off the phone and told Jaimie, she burst into tears and said how sorry she was, and I got choked up because she was.
I guess I keep going over and over in my head how thankful I am that I was able to tell him that I loved him and he would always be my dad. I also can't help but think that now he is with Odin, his faithful companion whom he had a closer relationship with than any of us (sad, but very true. Igor had to take 2 weeks off of work when they put Odin down last summer. He was a wreck).
Yeah..
shocked? I still don't know.
"Hey... is everything okay?"
"No."
"What's wrong?"
"*sigh* Your dad had a heart attack tonight and he died."
When she first said 'no' I was honestly expecting her to tell me that Igor had killed himself. After he left my work on Monday I just felt... odd. I don't know. I couldn't explain it to my mom, but something just didn't feel right. Then after my mom left a message on my home phone saying that Dad called her, saying that he was picking up Roman and they were going to go buy Halloween candy, I started to feel like maybe I was wrong to worry, that maybe he took our conversation as the wake up he needed to start acting like a dad again.
I'm... shocked? I don't know.. I cried a couple tears, I think only because when I got off the phone and told Jaimie, she burst into tears and said how sorry she was, and I got choked up because she was.
I guess I keep going over and over in my head how thankful I am that I was able to tell him that I loved him and he would always be my dad. I also can't help but think that now he is with Odin, his faithful companion whom he had a closer relationship with than any of us (sad, but very true. Igor had to take 2 weeks off of work when they put Odin down last summer. He was a wreck).
Yeah..
shocked? I still don't know.