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my first thanksgiving meal on my own was...
disappointing and then wonderful and then...just another meal.
i had planned to cook everything wed. because i had to work on thurs. so i had everything ready for when paul got home out of work. then he didnt come home. well he did but he spent some time at the bar first and in turn wasnt hungry. but at least he called, i just didnt pick up and he was truly sorry. but at any rate lifes getting weird. hes really stressed out and its getting harder for me to deal with someone whose angry all the time. i dont want anyone else and he says im the only thing that makes him happy but how happy can i make him?
the other thing is that everywhere i turn people are popping out babies and getting married (congratulations, you should pick up your phone miss love :)) and pauls boss who's only like 24 was telling him the other day he was our age when he got his wife pregnant. and i dont think i want that but it definitly puts it into my head and that gets my brain swirling and going crazy. ahhhhhhh.
moving away and on.
we sent funk and blowfish back off to virginia when we're done in this hellhole state i would really like to move there i think. we arent going back to maine but we cant stay here i hate it he hates it. sigh. but those two are pretty much the coolest people we've met down here. well ive met anyways.
sarah i love you call me. :)
disappointing and then wonderful and then...just another meal.
i had planned to cook everything wed. because i had to work on thurs. so i had everything ready for when paul got home out of work. then he didnt come home. well he did but he spent some time at the bar first and in turn wasnt hungry. but at least he called, i just didnt pick up and he was truly sorry. but at any rate lifes getting weird. hes really stressed out and its getting harder for me to deal with someone whose angry all the time. i dont want anyone else and he says im the only thing that makes him happy but how happy can i make him?
the other thing is that everywhere i turn people are popping out babies and getting married (congratulations, you should pick up your phone miss love :)) and pauls boss who's only like 24 was telling him the other day he was our age when he got his wife pregnant. and i dont think i want that but it definitly puts it into my head and that gets my brain swirling and going crazy. ahhhhhhh.
moving away and on.
we sent funk and blowfish back off to virginia when we're done in this hellhole state i would really like to move there i think. we arent going back to maine but we cant stay here i hate it he hates it. sigh. but those two are pretty much the coolest people we've met down here. well ive met anyways.
sarah i love you call me. :)