fucking chuck norris
i babysit now.
kylers three and a good kid in general. except for the time he tried to pee on me.
i also work at mcdonalds and i hate it but its money.
i must be crazy because i told paul not to work, that i could support us while he tried to find a job that he could stand.
i can do it. but i wouldnt for anyone but paul.
is that love?
ha or is love when he crawls into bed at 3 o clock and wraps around me and im not pissed at him for waking me up even though i finally fell asleep at one and have to getup at five?
or is it the fact that i enjoy making meals for us.
and having a room thats OURS.
he makes me feel like home. i havent felt home in so long. even at kathies my room was my home. and it was lonley. now i share my heart/home.
im not saying i love paul.
but i might someday.
i budget now.
i make grocery lists for the month.
i scouted out prices at the store.
i have a room now...and i made a trash can with a box and coasters, and i made a piggy bank thats a pig, and i made a cool candle drippy thing, and i made a "lantern" that doesnt light out of coasters and bottle caps.
i love it. its clean, it smells good, and me and pauly can be naked whenever we want.
last night i spent hours doing crafts and being naked and listening to music.
it feels good to smoke a ciggarette and sit on the floor naked with art scattered and music flowing.
i like it.
when i get my computer ill take pictures and post them of some stuff.
peace love panda
kylers three and a good kid in general. except for the time he tried to pee on me.
i also work at mcdonalds and i hate it but its money.
i must be crazy because i told paul not to work, that i could support us while he tried to find a job that he could stand.
i can do it. but i wouldnt for anyone but paul.
is that love?
ha or is love when he crawls into bed at 3 o clock and wraps around me and im not pissed at him for waking me up even though i finally fell asleep at one and have to getup at five?
or is it the fact that i enjoy making meals for us.
and having a room thats OURS.
he makes me feel like home. i havent felt home in so long. even at kathies my room was my home. and it was lonley. now i share my heart/home.
im not saying i love paul.
but i might someday.
i budget now.
i make grocery lists for the month.
i scouted out prices at the store.
i have a room now...and i made a trash can with a box and coasters, and i made a piggy bank thats a pig, and i made a cool candle drippy thing, and i made a "lantern" that doesnt light out of coasters and bottle caps.
i love it. its clean, it smells good, and me and pauly can be naked whenever we want.
last night i spent hours doing crafts and being naked and listening to music.
it feels good to smoke a ciggarette and sit on the floor naked with art scattered and music flowing.
i like it.
when i get my computer ill take pictures and post them of some stuff.
peace love panda