woo...
wow i went a little crazy last night in my jrnl, i fealt like shit though, idk, woo...fuck...woo...fuck, thats like my mood now, idk how to explain it. i went to crew which was hard as fuck. i did like nothing all day which was cool lol. i cant wait till fucking monday, no like rain or hurricane or noreaster or whatever the fuck else better happen that day or else im gonna cry lol...i have been waiting so long and i could wait an eternity for that chance but i just want it to come soon...summers going so fucking fast, what the fuck, its already july 22, one more fucking month and like 2 weeks until supposedly the hardest year at the prep then its cake bc its all like electives and shit and a lot easier. i had a weird convo with jill last night which lasted a while, it was just explicit to say the least and yet i gues you could say it was "mature" lol...then my sister came out at like one and idk she started feeding the cats turkey and idk what happened one back up scratchign at the tile and scared the shit out of the other 2 and they all took off at once...i was on the floor laughing and choking on a pretzel...it was a weird experience if you ever get the chance you should try it..hmmm....this is like the most ive written in here in a while....well m*** got one of his 7th grade sluts as they are commonly called to try to convince me to start talking to him again...that fucking pisses me off...i knew the bitch too which makes it worse...idk i hate him more then anything and why cant he fucking accept it...he said he cries over me and all this shit....fag........ o well, i may have depression but im not gonna get all fucked up over it, ill take it out of mind easily...hmm what else, ahh fuck idk, im in a woo fuck moood and idk whats happening...
what is this place
all i see is your face
where the hell am i
i see you with another guy
who the fuck is that
your holding him on your doormat
i see you kiss him
shit i give in
you shut the door
you start crying
then you fall to the floor
your thinking of me
somehow i can see
maybe its your eyes
yeah i can see it in your eyes
they never lied
fuck i just want you back
im seriously going to crack
im losing my mind
not one step at a time
but all at fucking once...
shit its happening again
i lost someone who was more then a friend
ive given up hope
maybe ill try something new
maybe ill smoke
maybe ill sniff glue
yeah thatll work
dont call me a jerk
i cant help where my hands go
my mind is reacting to slow
what did you just say
i wouldnt understand anyway
i can hear what you say
your thinking out loud
your voice sounds just that certain way
the way i used to love
but now its gone
i cant have it back
i just cant get any slack
your almost out of my reach
the next day comes up and your on the beach
sad and alone
you wish you stayed home
its like nothing youve ever fealt
i dont know how but i can tell
shit its happening again
i cant get back someone whos more then a friend
ive given up hope
maybe ill try something new
maybe ill smoke
maybe ill sniff glue
yeah thatll work
dont call me a jerk
i cant help where my hands go
my mind is reacting to slow
what the hell am i trying to say
you probably wouldnt understand anyway
what is this place
all i see is your face
where the hell am i
i see you with another guy
who the fuck is that
your holding him on your doormat
i see you kiss him
shit i give in
you shut the door
you start crying
then you fall to the floor
your thinking of me
somehow i can see
maybe its your eyes
yeah i can see it in your eyes
they never lied
fuck i just want you back
im seriously going to crack
im losing my mind
not one step at a time
but all at fucking once...
shit its happening again
i lost someone who was more then a friend
ive given up hope
maybe ill try something new
maybe ill smoke
maybe ill sniff glue
yeah thatll work
dont call me a jerk
i cant help where my hands go
my mind is reacting to slow
what did you just say
i wouldnt understand anyway
i can hear what you say
your thinking out loud
your voice sounds just that certain way
the way i used to love
but now its gone
i cant have it back
i just cant get any slack
your almost out of my reach
the next day comes up and your on the beach
sad and alone
you wish you stayed home
its like nothing youve ever fealt
i dont know how but i can tell
shit its happening again
i cant get back someone whos more then a friend
ive given up hope
maybe ill try something new
maybe ill smoke
maybe ill sniff glue
yeah thatll work
dont call me a jerk
i cant help where my hands go
my mind is reacting to slow
what the hell am i trying to say
you probably wouldnt understand anyway