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i finally watched the movie that was given such high praise by greg- eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. it was strange and (of course) it made me cry. it was pretty intense. imagine being able to erase a person from your mind, completely erase an entire relationship. forget you were in love, forget the mistakes, forget the pain, forget how much it hurts to say goodbye. think of all the things you wouldnt have to think about, all the aspects of a failed relationship that you could remove from existance. you would never feel guilty about the things you had done wrong because they wouldnt exist.
i dont know if i would do it. i feel like reflecting back on my failed relationships gives me a good lesson in how not to do things in the future. i dont like the term 'failed' relationship now that i think about it, because all of my serious relationships have given me something, in some way. the first one, well, that was just a good lesson in not taking crap i guess. the second and the third, i could never erase them. even despite the pain and tears that came at the end, they both filled me with so much happiness and love, i would never want to remove that from my heart. they were true examples of 'its not you, its me' and the most painful part is looking back on me being an asshole. the worst of it all is just feeling like complete shit for being who i was, and the guilt i feel for taking out my problems onto the people who only wanted the best for me. i dont think i would erase the painful parts, because i hope that theyll serve me well as i enter new relationships in my future.
the movie presents a really deep question of ethics and a whole slew of other philosophical concepts. i liked it, i wish i didnt cry so much.
thats all.
i dont know if i would do it. i feel like reflecting back on my failed relationships gives me a good lesson in how not to do things in the future. i dont like the term 'failed' relationship now that i think about it, because all of my serious relationships have given me something, in some way. the first one, well, that was just a good lesson in not taking crap i guess. the second and the third, i could never erase them. even despite the pain and tears that came at the end, they both filled me with so much happiness and love, i would never want to remove that from my heart. they were true examples of 'its not you, its me' and the most painful part is looking back on me being an asshole. the worst of it all is just feeling like complete shit for being who i was, and the guilt i feel for taking out my problems onto the people who only wanted the best for me. i dont think i would erase the painful parts, because i hope that theyll serve me well as i enter new relationships in my future.
the movie presents a really deep question of ethics and a whole slew of other philosophical concepts. i liked it, i wish i didnt cry so much.
thats all.