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i hate this feeling. and i know its what you hoped for. unlike usual, it doesnt make me angry, it only makes me sad. i dont really understand a lot of stuff that i wish i did. and i dont know if i can take it anymore so i guess i just keep myself in the dark. i dont really have all the things i wish i did. and then theres what i do have, and it is just fucking fantastic. its fustrating because im watching a lot of things right now that i really hate to see. pam and dar are in fits. the crying and the kids and the yelling and the shit. i promised myself id never let that happen to me. i promised. sometimes i just wonder.