FUCK THIS
I'm so pissed at my mom, so angry at my self and frustrated with caleb. No one has done anything WRONG persay, but all the things I'm being told are confusing me and making me crazy. I feel like I'm really going to lose it. I almost cut this morning...i didn't but I REALLY WANTED THAT RELEASE. I feel so trapped but I don't know by what or whom. I just want to scream. And i broke a peice off the back of my door punching it. luckily i didn't hurt my fist again...it's just a little red. I'm so confused. Why is the one thing I need tearring apart my mother? Why am I so confused about everything I was so sure of two months ago? GOD WHERE ARE YOU IN THIS? I'm so confused. So lonely...I'm being pushed in two directions and im supposed to agree with everyone else's point of view. HOW THE BLOODY HELL DO I DO THAT?
Pepper
Pepper