Dec 30, 2005 03:28
my head keeps spinning
my veins get warm
i cant feel my body
and the memories swarm
in and out my head
going at top speed
just another fix
is all that i need
something to calm me
maybe a pill or two
please give me something
before i come unglued
im searching for comfort
it comes when i finish
and to keep me a float
is when the drug is replemished
just another hit
i keep on saying
as i fall to the floor
in and out im swaying
one minute im awake
the next i appear dead
as the drugs run in my veins
and all through out my head
my body is now numb
i cant even talk
but in my dreams
i continue to walk
through a valley of light
but im all alone
no foot steps behind me
just the future i've thrown
can i still make it
with this past that i've built
can i live with all the memories
sadness and guilt
all i want is help
or maybe a hand
help me crawl out
and bring me to a stand
sometimes i feel all alone
with no one there
no one to talk to
and no one who cares
just a dark wall
that gets closer as i go
the more i take in
the more that it grows
i could have crawled out
when it was still small
but i've gone for so long
and those walls are now tall
their starting to close
and shading the light
to kill my self now
that i just might
im already dead
my life i have used
my lungs are now weak
and veins so abused
well this is it
i think i am done
in the beginning
it was so much fun
but once you fall
theres no getting up
u just have to lay there
as ur body curupts
my eyes are now shutting
but will i awake
well when u choose to do this
thats just a chance that u take
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kayla