Awww Ruby and C remembered my birthday :)
I haven't made a real update in a while.
So, my birthday was okay. Turning 19 isn't that special, I guess. I spent the night before my birthday at Steve's house. He got me a season pass for my birthday and I was kind if dissapointed, I kind of wanted jewelry or something but I'll live. I just don't see myself going that much. The next day we slept in, and then I went to the car place but none of my boys were there so I was a little sad :(. My mom, dad and I then had cake. My mom got me the Burberry Brit perfume I wanted and $100, which was really nice. Then I went back to Steve's house and that was it.
I feel like my life is in a rut again and I need a change. I want to go out, I want to meet new people...I hate how I feel like I latch onto people and they're the only people in my life, and then I just drop them. I'm sick of always feeling like I need one person to have me as their #1. I lost that person and then I feel empty, until I fill the void with the next person. I feel like I'm ready to drop that person now. I just feel scared because I know I'm going to have that emptiness until I find another person to fill that void. I just wish I wasn't like that, I wish that I could just be enough for myself.
So yea, I'm ready to break up with Steve. After three months I shouldn't already feel like I'm not happy. I see him everynight, so now I'm only going to go see him like three times a week or so and see if maybe not seeing him everyday will make me feel better about him. I just feel to comfortable around him and bored already, and we fight all the time about the dumbest shit. I feel like we've been dating for three years, not three months. It's horrible.
Lone Star has been really nice without Dawn, unfortunately in a way. I'm becoming close with so many people I never thought I would. I find myself ready to hang out with them and stuff, like Dyanna and Brianna and Stephanie and Camille. Before they were just people I talked to at work, except for Dyanna who I have hung out with before. It's really nice.
The end.
So, my birthday was okay. Turning 19 isn't that special, I guess. I spent the night before my birthday at Steve's house. He got me a season pass for my birthday and I was kind if dissapointed, I kind of wanted jewelry or something but I'll live. I just don't see myself going that much. The next day we slept in, and then I went to the car place but none of my boys were there so I was a little sad :(. My mom, dad and I then had cake. My mom got me the Burberry Brit perfume I wanted and $100, which was really nice. Then I went back to Steve's house and that was it.
I feel like my life is in a rut again and I need a change. I want to go out, I want to meet new people...I hate how I feel like I latch onto people and they're the only people in my life, and then I just drop them. I'm sick of always feeling like I need one person to have me as their #1. I lost that person and then I feel empty, until I fill the void with the next person. I feel like I'm ready to drop that person now. I just feel scared because I know I'm going to have that emptiness until I find another person to fill that void. I just wish I wasn't like that, I wish that I could just be enough for myself.
So yea, I'm ready to break up with Steve. After three months I shouldn't already feel like I'm not happy. I see him everynight, so now I'm only going to go see him like three times a week or so and see if maybe not seeing him everyday will make me feel better about him. I just feel to comfortable around him and bored already, and we fight all the time about the dumbest shit. I feel like we've been dating for three years, not three months. It's horrible.
Lone Star has been really nice without Dawn, unfortunately in a way. I'm becoming close with so many people I never thought I would. I find myself ready to hang out with them and stuff, like Dyanna and Brianna and Stephanie and Camille. Before they were just people I talked to at work, except for Dyanna who I have hung out with before. It's really nice.
The end.