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well... i dunno about dave im unsure of his true feelings for me or if hes just playing with my head.. i've been feeling pretty good lately... kinda happy actually.. unless if i get let down.. trents gonna be 2 yrs old next month hes getting sooooooo big... and hes the whineyest lil thing i've ever met he grunts too.. hes like a caveman ..a cute caveman..i like to take him to the park but i don't like to take himoutside of the house because he gets into things he shouldn't be... like running in gaint puddles and getting wet.. he picks up everything he sees and he doesn't like to come inside so its a struggle.....
dave says he loves me and i have a feeling we are always gonna be together...but... how do i know if hes messin around on me or doing stuff behind my back because thats just the way he is.. and i don't think he will ever change his ways to meet mine...
found out jamies smokin crack or something i found some choy... or something.. i tasted the stuff she had on the cd case.. it was ick.. tasted like coke/crack.. so im thinking great jamies a crackhead... just like someone else i know......
its just not fair why does everything in my life have to be so fucked up why can't things just go MY way.. maybe i might be selfish for wanting that.. but.. what do i have to look forward to... i want to get married i want a family i want.. everything i never had.. i want a truthful husband who will love me for who i am and the way i am.. and will treat me withthe same respect i want a house of my own with a maid.. or something...i want to go to college.. i want so ooosososo many things.. but who knows maybe some of them will come true... all i can do is hope..
i feel like i'll love dave till the day i die no matter how much he treats me like shit.. its a curse.
im at the library.. eht library i'm gonna go look for a book now.. or something
dave says he loves me and i have a feeling we are always gonna be together...but... how do i know if hes messin around on me or doing stuff behind my back because thats just the way he is.. and i don't think he will ever change his ways to meet mine...
found out jamies smokin crack or something i found some choy... or something.. i tasted the stuff she had on the cd case.. it was ick.. tasted like coke/crack.. so im thinking great jamies a crackhead... just like someone else i know......
its just not fair why does everything in my life have to be so fucked up why can't things just go MY way.. maybe i might be selfish for wanting that.. but.. what do i have to look forward to... i want to get married i want a family i want.. everything i never had.. i want a truthful husband who will love me for who i am and the way i am.. and will treat me withthe same respect i want a house of my own with a maid.. or something...i want to go to college.. i want so ooosososo many things.. but who knows maybe some of them will come true... all i can do is hope..
i feel like i'll love dave till the day i die no matter how much he treats me like shit.. its a curse.
im at the library.. eht library i'm gonna go look for a book now.. or something