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So today was pretty shitty. School was lame and people are lame and at lunch I was really happy because I was thinking about how I get to move pretty soon but then I looked across the table at Becky and it was just like someone had stabbed me in the heart because I love her so much and I am going to miss her so much when I move. I honestly can't explain it. She is my best friend in the entire world and means more to me than anything ever has or ever will. I hate the fact that she lives here because when I move, I really don't know what I'm going to do. I know that I'm going to cry during the whole car ride down to Charlotte, though. I love her so bad. I won't be able to call her or talk to her for like, a week. I know it. Just like I couldn't talk to my dad for a week when I moved. It was too painful. If I hear her voice I'd probably go nuts. I know that I'm going to cry. I can't even imagine how bad this is going to be. Wow. I love her. I love everyone else too. I have the most amazing friends and they are all so special to me. They are all so amazing and perfect and kind and I just love and respect and cherish them more than they will ever know and I will miss them terribly when I am gone.
While I am talking about friends, I really must touch on the subject of my friend Joey. We have been friends since the beginning of this school year and we've always gotten along pretty well except for when he decided to be a jerk. And at first it didn't bother me but after a while it just started to get to me because he was my friend and just like my other friends, I cared about him a lot. And I just kind of felt like if he could make fun of me then he didn't really care about me as much as I cared about him, and that really hurt. We got into this terrible cycle where he would piss me off, I'd get mad and ignore him, he'd apologize, i'd forgive him, we'd be okay for a while, and then he'd make me angry again. this happened so often that i thought i was going to go crazy. friday some shit went down that wasn't so cool and i had never been more hurt or offended in my entire life. i don't want to get into the story because really it still hurts to think about it but whatever. I told him that I'd give him another chance but really, this is the absolute last one. "I'm Sorry" can only work so many times. I don't think I could go through the stuff he used to put me through again. It's just too much. Anyway, we made up today. And he told me that "Seventy times seven" by brand new reminded him of me and i was like about to cry because that is my favorite brand new song ever besides play crack the sky. I'm glad we are friends again. I hate being mad at him. I hate hate hate it.
I brought Leah a box of 40 tampons today. It was cool. I am clearly the best friend ever.
My copy of "Deja Entendu" was found broken in two pieces in the backseat of my car yesterday. RIP Deja Entendu. You were a good friend. I love brand new. now i have to go buy a new one :[
Um, Eisley's album "Room Noises" came out today. Go to a store and buy it. Same for The Academy Is...'s album "Almost Here". Both albums are amazing and I suggest purchasing them.
"Konstantine" makes me cry every single time I listen to it wow thank you for being amazing Something Corporate.
While I am talking about friends, I really must touch on the subject of my friend Joey. We have been friends since the beginning of this school year and we've always gotten along pretty well except for when he decided to be a jerk. And at first it didn't bother me but after a while it just started to get to me because he was my friend and just like my other friends, I cared about him a lot. And I just kind of felt like if he could make fun of me then he didn't really care about me as much as I cared about him, and that really hurt. We got into this terrible cycle where he would piss me off, I'd get mad and ignore him, he'd apologize, i'd forgive him, we'd be okay for a while, and then he'd make me angry again. this happened so often that i thought i was going to go crazy. friday some shit went down that wasn't so cool and i had never been more hurt or offended in my entire life. i don't want to get into the story because really it still hurts to think about it but whatever. I told him that I'd give him another chance but really, this is the absolute last one. "I'm Sorry" can only work so many times. I don't think I could go through the stuff he used to put me through again. It's just too much. Anyway, we made up today. And he told me that "Seventy times seven" by brand new reminded him of me and i was like about to cry because that is my favorite brand new song ever besides play crack the sky. I'm glad we are friends again. I hate being mad at him. I hate hate hate it.
I brought Leah a box of 40 tampons today. It was cool. I am clearly the best friend ever.
My copy of "Deja Entendu" was found broken in two pieces in the backseat of my car yesterday. RIP Deja Entendu. You were a good friend. I love brand new. now i have to go buy a new one :[
Um, Eisley's album "Room Noises" came out today. Go to a store and buy it. Same for The Academy Is...'s album "Almost Here". Both albums are amazing and I suggest purchasing them.
"Konstantine" makes me cry every single time I listen to it wow thank you for being amazing Something Corporate.