You Would Kill for this
I got home and threw my backpack on the floor. “I hate this!” I screamed and kicked a pillow on the floor. I stood there for a second, a bit dazed the day had been a complete blur and I would have been better off if I completely forgot the whole thing. I turned on the radio
“You would Kill for this just a little Bit just a little bit.”
“Oh yeah, You would kill for this.” I said in sarcasm while looking in the mirror. I grabbed my eye liner and caked another layer on around my eyes. I tried to smile but I was dissatisfied with myself at that moment. What was there to hate? Everything was ok in my life no life threatening diseases, no family problems, just this guy. This guy who captivated me and this guy who seems to always be just out of reach, this guy who brought my hopes up so high and then let them loose like Bungee jumpers, I’m just barley dangling here . I stared to sing along with the song “Sing me something soft, Sad and delicate, Or loud and out of key.” I laughed at myself cause that’s exactly what I was doing singing horribly out of key.
I danced out of my room, and stopped dead in my tacks when I noticed lip imprints on the front of my bedroom door. Chills rolled up and down my spine remembering that those where Jason’s lips. I looked down at the floor and continued to the kitchen. I opened the cabinet and gazed at all the food. “I’m not hungry.” I said and walked outside on my porch taking in the much needed fresh air. “You would Kill for this just a little bit…wouldn’t you?!” I screamed. And I swear in the moment the clouds darkened.
“You would Kill for this just a little Bit just a little bit.”
“Oh yeah, You would kill for this.” I said in sarcasm while looking in the mirror. I grabbed my eye liner and caked another layer on around my eyes. I tried to smile but I was dissatisfied with myself at that moment. What was there to hate? Everything was ok in my life no life threatening diseases, no family problems, just this guy. This guy who captivated me and this guy who seems to always be just out of reach, this guy who brought my hopes up so high and then let them loose like Bungee jumpers, I’m just barley dangling here . I stared to sing along with the song “Sing me something soft, Sad and delicate, Or loud and out of key.” I laughed at myself cause that’s exactly what I was doing singing horribly out of key.
I danced out of my room, and stopped dead in my tacks when I noticed lip imprints on the front of my bedroom door. Chills rolled up and down my spine remembering that those where Jason’s lips. I looked down at the floor and continued to the kitchen. I opened the cabinet and gazed at all the food. “I’m not hungry.” I said and walked outside on my porch taking in the much needed fresh air. “You would Kill for this just a little bit…wouldn’t you?!” I screamed. And I swear in the moment the clouds darkened.