AT LAST NO ANGST....A MOSTLY WONDERFUL UPDATE
I got the results back and apparently the results of both the EEGs and MRI were normal. Not sure what the Doctor will tell me on Thursday, but at least I don't have a brain tumor or something equally scary. I suspect I'll get the same speech I got last year about how it will go away on its own or maybe he'll tell me to keep taking the meds (according to one pharm site they don't know how it works, just that it does treat pain and epilepsy). I'm still having the electric shocks, though not as many and the med side effects are finally (after 4 weeks) are going away too. I actually drove myself to and from work last week, which I haven't done in weeks because of the lack of co-ordination and dizziness. Poor Mom's had to get up at 5am to drive me in.
So I've been kinda depressed because at the last couple of Doctor's visits I haven't seen any weight loss or there's weight gain on the scale. Yet I have been noticing a difference in my clothes (a little odd since no exercise, just trying to keep fat about 20g per day). It started with a couple of shirts that used to be skin tight being comfy and then loose, I've been able to steal some of Mom's clothes and wear some of my smaller 2X (18-20) stuff.
Which was why I cleared the closet and donated to charity of all the stuff I was wearing last summer (3X and 4X). I made myself try on everything including the stuff I've been carting around for 6 years on the chance I might someday be able to wear it again. Before learning about PCOS I didn't really have much hope of ever fitting into them. So I was shocked when I tried them and found they were just a little bit tight. About this same time I informed my boss and co-workers in our team meeting that I would accept the first job I was offered. I wanted to warn them because they'll probably have to go from working every 3rd to every other weekend to cover my shifts.
Anyway last week I needed an interview outfit and decided to try on my favorite black suit pants and blue silk blouse just to see if they might fit. They did and when paired with my black 3" slings I felt like I'd had a Tim Gunn makeover. I felt ab fab; tall (the shoes put me close to 5'7"), glowing with youth & vitality (bare essentials is great makeup) and more like myself than I have in ages.
They're gonna make a decision later this week and I have a good shot since one of the managers works closely with my old boss. Plus the job combines bits from every job I've done in the company including the excel spreadsheets with pivot tables I designed. So I'm really qualified, but even if I don't get it I'm not worried because I got calls yesterday to schedule an interview for next week and another letting me know they'll be calling later this week to schedule an interview. I'm not the only one with job news. Mom got called in for an interview for today (her first since the stroke). I'm really hoping she gets it because I think it will help her take the next step in recovering. My brother just got hired for his college's emergency services department, its only 10 hours a week, but he's really looking forward to it. It feels really great after weeks of stressing over how to pay the bills to finally have some good news.
The interview next week is for the job I really, really want because it would mean a $5 an hour raise and if i ended up on swing or graves its even more $$, it includes a uniform allowance (so no more thinking about what to wear to work), similar benefits so I only lose 8 days of time off per year and I would actually be working in the same field as the degree I'm working on. The only downside is that unlike the others it means leaving the company I've been with for 11 years. In some ways the company has been very good to me, but I really think its time to try something new. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
There is also good news on the writing front. I located the flash drive with all my writing and story notes so I can resume editting and writing my WIPs (its been missing for a month, but I've had other things on my mind). I was feeling so good the last two days that I actually got some writing done. I'm not quite ready to post anything yet, but at least the story that I've been thinking about doing since Goodbye and Goodluck is finally off to a good start its suppose to be a case file with hints about Sara's ghosts, I also worked on some other unposted stuff and am debating editting and reposting some of my WIPs. That idea became more appealing after I got this rude review on ffnet for When the Evidence Lies. The review said "Okay, that's it. I'm done with this. Do you realize it's been 16 months since you updated. The least you could do is post that the story is on hiatus. From now on, when and if I read stories on this list, they better say "complete," or I won't be bothering. Can you really think anyone will take you seriously after you do this?" My initial impulse which was to just delete When the Evidence Lies once and for all; some days that story seems like more trouble than its worth. Instead I posted on YTDAW's Reader's and Writer's Rant thread and I'm following the advice I got and let the snarky comment roll off my back.
Also I have found a novel series that might be of interest; its not too new, but I'd never heard of it until I found it in the library. Its from various authors writing under the name Alex Archer and called Rogue Angel. Without giving away the plot its kinda like Witchblade meets Lara Croft. The heroine is interesting and the writers apparently watch the same documentaries I do because the archaeology stuff was both familiar and pretty accurate. I finished the first book "Destiny" and have checked out the next three, though according to Wikipedia there are a bunch published and like 10 more coming.