Hopelessly Hopeful
So my car rides to and from school can either be really good or really bad.
Today, traffic was really good, but me personally, really crappy.
I tend to seriouslt drift off alot and do some serious thinking in the car when im by myself.
Is it bad when you can relate TV shows to your life?
I wish i knew if he really missed me.
Of course i am absolutely going crazy about the fact that things are the way they are, but i wish i just knew what was going on, on the other side.
I hate that i dont know what the future holds for me.
I know what i want to see happen.
But what if what i want to happen doesnt happen.
Or what if i get thrown a curveball or something
I really hate suprises
I wish i could just fast forward about 5 years and see whats going on just to give me a heads up.
I dont think id be mad that there were no suprises in my life.
Well i'd like small suprises but nothing crazy that would throw my world off balance
When it comes to my life its like i need to have some sort of track that i know im gonna stick by and its gonna work
So what do you do when all of a sudden you hit that dead end
Im so far into this that i dont want it to be a dead end
Not that its hit that point, but what if it does?
How do you make someone or something disappear after that long?
Especially if you dont want it to disappear.
Ive had to try and think of life without it before and i was a mess
So thats what went through my head all day today
On a couple of lighter notes.
My uncle went in for surgery today.
They were able to remove all the cancer and he should be alright.
That was a big relief.
God forbid things went bad, especially with the holidays right around the corner...
Holidays with the Sant's would have been not so great.
Ive started my christmas list up and got some really nice gifts in mind for those big people in my life.
I seriously think im definitely more excited to give gifts out this year then recieve them.
I pretty much buy anything i really need or want since the parentals really have no money to play around with
There's nothing i really am like begging for this year
The only thing ive got my eye on at this point is a TiVo.
That thing is crazy.
Ive pretty much got everything planned out for what im buying the family, and some of my sisters and dave and his mom and sister.
Im so excited :)
GBK looks alot better today
I went to Petco and they said old age sounds like its taking a toll on her or something
So they gave me this stuff to put in her tank for the week and they said that should get her all back to her usual self.
Everyone is trying to tell me its a sign but all i see it as is a sick fish that needs alittle TLC
So maybe thats all we really need, alittle TLC for this thing.
She's been through everything with me so far, theres no way im losing her now.
Same goes with my relationship.
I got an 88 on my Psych test i took the other day!
Here i come with that 2.5 baby!
You'll be seeing me on that executive board sooner or later.
You can count on that!
The rest of my week is definitely shot
Tomorrow ive got school til 3
Then Lorie and I are going back to Queens Center to spend her H&M giftcard and find me a pair of shoes for the party thursday
Wednesday im going with the best big sister to see Plain White T's with Simple Plan and i think Straylight Run
Thursday is of course my sorority meeting, then we have our party that night
Then ive got 3 days of straight doubles.
Isnt that spectacular?
I know i know.
But, it all might pay off in 2 weeks.........
We'll see.
Ill keep you updated on that issue.
Well i think thats enough for today
Im gonna go look over some notes
CRAZY right?
LoL Lorie said thats what smart people do everyday.
Isnt she silly?
Later Gators
Today, traffic was really good, but me personally, really crappy.
I tend to seriouslt drift off alot and do some serious thinking in the car when im by myself.
Is it bad when you can relate TV shows to your life?
I wish i knew if he really missed me.
Of course i am absolutely going crazy about the fact that things are the way they are, but i wish i just knew what was going on, on the other side.
I hate that i dont know what the future holds for me.
I know what i want to see happen.
But what if what i want to happen doesnt happen.
Or what if i get thrown a curveball or something
I really hate suprises
I wish i could just fast forward about 5 years and see whats going on just to give me a heads up.
I dont think id be mad that there were no suprises in my life.
Well i'd like small suprises but nothing crazy that would throw my world off balance
When it comes to my life its like i need to have some sort of track that i know im gonna stick by and its gonna work
So what do you do when all of a sudden you hit that dead end
Im so far into this that i dont want it to be a dead end
Not that its hit that point, but what if it does?
How do you make someone or something disappear after that long?
Especially if you dont want it to disappear.
Ive had to try and think of life without it before and i was a mess
So thats what went through my head all day today
On a couple of lighter notes.
My uncle went in for surgery today.
They were able to remove all the cancer and he should be alright.
That was a big relief.
God forbid things went bad, especially with the holidays right around the corner...
Holidays with the Sant's would have been not so great.
Ive started my christmas list up and got some really nice gifts in mind for those big people in my life.
I seriously think im definitely more excited to give gifts out this year then recieve them.
I pretty much buy anything i really need or want since the parentals really have no money to play around with
There's nothing i really am like begging for this year
The only thing ive got my eye on at this point is a TiVo.
That thing is crazy.
Ive pretty much got everything planned out for what im buying the family, and some of my sisters and dave and his mom and sister.
Im so excited :)
GBK looks alot better today
I went to Petco and they said old age sounds like its taking a toll on her or something
So they gave me this stuff to put in her tank for the week and they said that should get her all back to her usual self.
Everyone is trying to tell me its a sign but all i see it as is a sick fish that needs alittle TLC
So maybe thats all we really need, alittle TLC for this thing.
She's been through everything with me so far, theres no way im losing her now.
Same goes with my relationship.
I got an 88 on my Psych test i took the other day!
Here i come with that 2.5 baby!
You'll be seeing me on that executive board sooner or later.
You can count on that!
The rest of my week is definitely shot
Tomorrow ive got school til 3
Then Lorie and I are going back to Queens Center to spend her H&M giftcard and find me a pair of shoes for the party thursday
Wednesday im going with the best big sister to see Plain White T's with Simple Plan and i think Straylight Run
Thursday is of course my sorority meeting, then we have our party that night
Then ive got 3 days of straight doubles.
Isnt that spectacular?
I know i know.
But, it all might pay off in 2 weeks.........
We'll see.
Ill keep you updated on that issue.
Well i think thats enough for today
Im gonna go look over some notes
CRAZY right?
LoL Lorie said thats what smart people do everyday.
Isnt she silly?
Later Gators