The Great Weight Loss Experiment
So... I'm going to admit the bloody obvious.
For whatever reason (I can think of a few), I'm having a really hard
staying 'on the wagon' with the weight loss.
The reasons I'm having so much difficult are many and varied, but what
I'm getting is.. what worked previously may not necessarily work now,
not immediately, at least. Maybe I got lucky the last time. Maybe I
was in just such a point in my life things sort of fell together for
me, but I'm not at that point now. Now, I'm going to have to work a
little harder to get what I want, or fall prey to my own weaker
instincts again.
So.. cards on the table, I don't know what it'll take to really get
this to work and keep it working. Truth be told, I've tried a bunch of
different approaches and this may not be the last approach I try.
It's all some.. great experiment.
I think, THIS TIME, I'm trying to ease into it... to try to make it
not be a big deal, because if I make it a big deal, I inevitably get
all pissed at myself when I fail to be able to life up to my rather
lofty self-expectations. (Yes, I'm a perfectionist and at this stage
in my life, it's REALLY hard to disentangle myself from it all.)
My plan, for now.. a couple of small changes. Relatively. Try to get
into the gym more often, three or four times a week, and try to avoid
cheating (a more vague meaning, but I know what I want to do here.)
I'd love to say I know this is going to work. I don't. There are times
I feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle and am just too exhausted to
bother. But... I'm going to try anyways. Because despite the shift in
my ability to cope with my life, it's still important to me to try to
lose the weight.
For whatever reason (I can think of a few), I'm having a really hard
staying 'on the wagon' with the weight loss.
The reasons I'm having so much difficult are many and varied, but what
I'm getting is.. what worked previously may not necessarily work now,
not immediately, at least. Maybe I got lucky the last time. Maybe I
was in just such a point in my life things sort of fell together for
me, but I'm not at that point now. Now, I'm going to have to work a
little harder to get what I want, or fall prey to my own weaker
instincts again.
So.. cards on the table, I don't know what it'll take to really get
this to work and keep it working. Truth be told, I've tried a bunch of
different approaches and this may not be the last approach I try.
It's all some.. great experiment.
I think, THIS TIME, I'm trying to ease into it... to try to make it
not be a big deal, because if I make it a big deal, I inevitably get
all pissed at myself when I fail to be able to life up to my rather
lofty self-expectations. (Yes, I'm a perfectionist and at this stage
in my life, it's REALLY hard to disentangle myself from it all.)
My plan, for now.. a couple of small changes. Relatively. Try to get
into the gym more often, three or four times a week, and try to avoid
cheating (a more vague meaning, but I know what I want to do here.)
I'd love to say I know this is going to work. I don't. There are times
I feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle and am just too exhausted to
bother. But... I'm going to try anyways. Because despite the shift in
my ability to cope with my life, it's still important to me to try to
lose the weight.