I don't know what to say anymore...
Hm.... update. So, I cut my hair. Again. It was supposed to be a long pixie, but it's more like a bob.... I think the bottom layer is a bit short. Eh, it'll grow. Actually, I think all the layers were too long... it was too round. Teaches me to let someone who doesn't understand my style cut my hair. :-P So, Lindsay chopped it up for me. :-D But yeah.... the pink, which was red two weeks prior, is gone. I filled it in with purple, with two little pops of green... which faded very fast, so we went over it in blue.... and I like the blue so much that I think that'll be my color from now on. LOL It'll be interesting to see how I can punk this hair up.
I've basically been working, school, and sleeping, lately. Things have been weird, and it's mostly internal. Had basically what amounted to a nightmare a ways back - dreamt I was pregnant.... HUGE pregnant. As there's no chance of this, it's simply unsettling. I don't plan on ever having kids. Simply no thank you. DO NOT WANT.
I've been feeling stagnant lately.... like I'm stuck in neutral. I need to break away for a bit. But that's not possible.
I'm barely working this month, as of now. This has to change.
I've decided not to spend any money this month except on gas. And Holiday presents. It's time to clear away the crap I don't need. This will save me money, and as I won't be buying food out, I'll hopefully lose some weight. More up on Ebay.... things I never wear, use, etc. Time to save.
I want to just wrap myself up in darkness and wear it like a coat, lately. Mentally. I feel like I'm missing something. Something light.... that I had not too long ago. I want to revel in the darkness, but I'm not allowed to do that, either, to be what I crave right now. It comes back to my surroundings - stupid, drama creating little twits for the most part at school, that feeling of stagnancy, family poking at me with little tiny, nasty, 'under the radar' jabs like they've done for years. I don't really *like* hair, and I'm half way through. Thank god for the runway show this weekend - I get to do what I actually do. I need to keep reminding myself that it's a means to an end. Light at the end of the tunnel. I have to refocus and clear my energy. Fuck, I hope this is hormonal.
I have nothing to say about the election other than this - I hope he turns out to be like every other politician and once he gets into power completely forgets all he promised.... incuding the things that are not actually possible. I'll hold my breath until I'm 30.
I've basically been working, school, and sleeping, lately. Things have been weird, and it's mostly internal. Had basically what amounted to a nightmare a ways back - dreamt I was pregnant.... HUGE pregnant. As there's no chance of this, it's simply unsettling. I don't plan on ever having kids. Simply no thank you. DO NOT WANT.
I've been feeling stagnant lately.... like I'm stuck in neutral. I need to break away for a bit. But that's not possible.
I'm barely working this month, as of now. This has to change.
I've decided not to spend any money this month except on gas. And Holiday presents. It's time to clear away the crap I don't need. This will save me money, and as I won't be buying food out, I'll hopefully lose some weight. More up on Ebay.... things I never wear, use, etc. Time to save.
I want to just wrap myself up in darkness and wear it like a coat, lately. Mentally. I feel like I'm missing something. Something light.... that I had not too long ago. I want to revel in the darkness, but I'm not allowed to do that, either, to be what I crave right now. It comes back to my surroundings - stupid, drama creating little twits for the most part at school, that feeling of stagnancy, family poking at me with little tiny, nasty, 'under the radar' jabs like they've done for years. I don't really *like* hair, and I'm half way through. Thank god for the runway show this weekend - I get to do what I actually do. I need to keep reminding myself that it's a means to an end. Light at the end of the tunnel. I have to refocus and clear my energy. Fuck, I hope this is hormonal.
I have nothing to say about the election other than this - I hope he turns out to be like every other politician and once he gets into power completely forgets all he promised.... incuding the things that are not actually possible. I'll hold my breath until I'm 30.