Psycho Mumbo Jumbo
I feel kind of weird right now; I'm spacey and questioning. What I thought I understood about people and relationships isn't applying anymore. I really believed that talking things through with a person and putting things in a different perspective through words would solve the problem. Not only that, but just talking about others' problems doesn't solve any; it's like putting duct tape on a leak and expecting it to hold forever. Of course, it doesn't solve anything right away, but I've been doing some of it for years and no changes have been made. The problems are ALL still around. I keep forgetting that change comes from within the one that needs to change. And sometimes they aren't ready to change yet. Or it's just my opinion that they need to, and they don't agree. I've always felt some weird responsibility for some reason, like I could make people get ready to change through words, through caring enough and being honest. Like it's up to me to improve others. But of course that's... well, insane. I put this pressure on myself to be everyone's psychologist, and it seemed to help people enough in the past for me to keep doing it. But now it's getting unhealthy.
Now, don't get me wrong, I love the people I know for who they are now. But when someone comes to me and tells me about what they see as a character flaw in themselves, I try to help them change that. Like by telling me, they're asking me to step in. And I know that's not what they're doing, but it's my reaction to it.
I just need to reevaluate my role in my relationships. Who am I among others?
Now, don't get me wrong, I love the people I know for who they are now. But when someone comes to me and tells me about what they see as a character flaw in themselves, I try to help them change that. Like by telling me, they're asking me to step in. And I know that's not what they're doing, but it's my reaction to it.
I just need to reevaluate my role in my relationships. Who am I among others?