"Changes" post-ep fic.

[lit_luminary]

Title: Remade Regrets
Author: lit_luminary
Rating: PG-13
Characters/Pairings: Chase; past Chase/Cameron; implications of Chase/various women and House/Chase friendship/mentorship.
Summary: A study in remorse and might-have-beens, attempting to reconcile Chase’s behavior this season with his character as established in S1-6. (Set after “Changes” but

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Chase and Faith.

[ext_770484]

(PLEASE READ THIS PART FIRST) First off, when I read a fic and I can actually hear the actors voices and see their expressions then I know that I'm 'in it till the end'. You capture the characters beautifully. You have an easy style of writing that I enjoy immensely. I've not yet had the chance to read them all,but I fully intend to. I hope you don't mind, but I'd like to add my own ramble and uptake of the Chase character. I believe that after House, he's the most complex. His 'unpsoken' words say so much more than his spoken. I also believe that his turmoil runs deep and stems from an unfulfilled yearning to serve his God. Even when Chase is completely off the rails his faith is never lost. Why do I think this. Well, most write that he's 'lost' his faith - but as the season's have continued, we hear the word of faith in Chase's mouth more and more. From 'Damned if you do' where he is very reluctant to even acknowledge his faith in God.(except to the nun) His prayer for the dead baby before the autopsy was heart breaking in it's nuance. Then as he grows he's more trusting of it. In 'Here Kitty' when he say's that he "believes in Faith and Prayer" we have the concrete evidence of that faith told loud and proud. Not to mention all the subtle body language throughout. When ever anything is in balance, we notice that Chase will sit at the table in the office and hold his posture and hands as if in silent prayer. It made perfect sense that he would seek absolution in the confessional. Chase loves two beings. God and Allison. After his number one turn to, failed he went, finally to seek absolution with the second most influential person in his life. His faith is alive and kicking and I truly believe that it's his core. His lack of faith, however lies with the dogma of religion. In season 7 we hear more and more the spiritual counter balance (as opposed with House's none belief) placed firmly with Chase's dealings with his patients. We see that Chase is annoyed with House and asks his to stop mocking the man who believes his daughter was saved by God in 'Small Sacrifices'. In Fall from Grace,he truly believes that the man was saved by God for a better purpose.He openly asks Taub to give the guy 'a break'. I truly believe that his sleeping around his HIS test of God. It's like he's saying to God..Come on, Whatcha gonna do about it? Then we clearly see that after 'Changes' Chase comes to realize that it's futile and see's the emptiness in his Tempting of God to 'smite' him for being a whore. This is then reflected in the scene where he's a asleep, on his own (After Hours) with the book The Crusades' laying across his chest. (honestly,they couldn't have been more obvious in the writing of this scene if they'd had a Bible laid across his chest)......more....>