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About my last entry, every1 and everything. Im doing so badly right now, and other than my sister and like 2 friends who don't even know whats going on, no one cares at all. everyone is so concentrated on themselves that they have no room left for me. I ask friends how they're doing and they'll talk for literally hours on end without asking me how I am, or if I'm ok. I'm not saying that I need everyone to be like "oh r u ok, jackie" all the time or anything, but it would be kind of nice if someone cared at all. I feel like im always trying to be such a good friend. I always ask friends how they're doing, and if they're less than good, i'll talk to them about whats going on with them and just be the person they can talk to. I think a lot of friends really feel like they can talk to me and trust me. That's good... I want to be a good friend. But i think i'd die of shock if anyone even cared or wanted to help at all.
All I even do anymore is cry. Usually between 2-6 times a day. It's been like 2 weeks since ive gone a day without breaking down and sobbing. My sister is really sweet and she spent like half an hour with me today while I sobbed and made me feel better about some stuff. I really love you sooo much Alyssa, even when I'm getting mad @ you (which has been more often cuz im like blowing up @ not so huge things). I know you're always there for me and always will be, and I will ALWAYS be there for you too. <33333333
p.s. please don't comment saying that you're there for me, because i don't think most of the people that read this care at all.
All I even do anymore is cry. Usually between 2-6 times a day. It's been like 2 weeks since ive gone a day without breaking down and sobbing. My sister is really sweet and she spent like half an hour with me today while I sobbed and made me feel better about some stuff. I really love you sooo much Alyssa, even when I'm getting mad @ you (which has been more often cuz im like blowing up @ not so huge things). I know you're always there for me and always will be, and I will ALWAYS be there for you too. <33333333
p.s. please don't comment saying that you're there for me, because i don't think most of the people that read this care at all.