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Wow. I cannot understand how so much time has gone by since I have last written an entry. Everything has gone by so fast and so much has happened. I have actually been meaning to update for quite some time (a few weeks at least) but things have just gotten in the way. Either I was just too busy and too tired, or I just couldn’t find the words I was looking for at the time when I was in the mood to write. Whatever. I’m making it work now. You love it. It's probably going to be long so, cut tags are my friend.
Okay…Christmas in Michigan
It was awesome to be home, I got to see everyone I wanted to see (except Charlie, who never called me. Pshh.), and I generally had a fantastic time with everyone. But I realize now that Michigan can never be my home. I mean, virtually nothing has changed at home. When I arrived, it felt like I had never left. Everything looked the same, my family acted the same, and it even smelled the same. At first the familiarity made me feel a sense of completeness and I began to wonder why I left in the first place, but the feeling faded very quickly. The fact that my family has not changed one iota is the exact solitary reason why I wanted to move out of state. I feel like I’ve grown so much as a human in the time I’ve been away and it was a growth that never would have occurred if I’d stayed close to home. But I guess I was just hoping that my family would grow a bit too. I’m certain now that nothing ever changes just because you want it too. I can’t say that the trip was a bad thing. I felt a huge sense of relief for all of the guilt associated with “deserting” your family and friends. I no longer feel that guilt and am assured that my choices are leading me down the right path in life.
I really loved visiting with friends, though. I got to see everyone from Alma that I wanted to see (except Marie and Jana, booface!), I reconnected with Ryan, an old high school friend, and we had a great time, and I also got to see my other high school friend Amanda and meet her little baby boy. I feel like I still have good connections with all my friends in Michigan and those friendships that are fading, are certainly not due to my lack of trying. So, I don’t feel any remorse for losing touch with people that make no attempt to keep in touch with me. It’s just a part of life I guess.
But all-in-all:
Home is a nice place to visit, but I wouldn’t want to live there.
Boyfriend!? Yippee Skippee!
This is for Charlotte who asked me to elaborate online, but I was just too tired by the time I got her message to respond.
I met a guy named Jason just before I left to go home for the holidays and then kind of forgot all about him until I returned, but he contacted me and we hung out a few times after I got back. We immediately clicked personality-wise, and have yet to run out of things to talk about. I am still so amazed by him because he is not a typical guy at all. He is incredibly chivalrous (which, omg! swoon!), cooks for me all the time, offers me foot rubs on a daily basis, is very close to his family without being a mommas-boy, and he’s completely crazy about me, too. Sometimes I honestly have to pinch myself because I can’t believe I found a guy this fantastic. I’m smitten, to say the least, and am very excited at the possibilities this relationship brings to my life. I never thought I would be one of those puky, lovesick kind of people, but I am and I can’t help it. I’m enamored.
Work has been going great too even though I'm already reaching the burnout point for the year. I think it's the weather. It has been so warm and sunny that my brain has just shifted into Spring mode and I feel like school should be out soon. I mean, it really shouldn't be 82 degrees in February, even in NC! When it's warm, all I can think about is laying out on the beach, which makes going to work in the morning REEEEAAALLLYY difficult. But I'm loving my job more and more and I really love that I have a partner in crime this year. Victoria and I just take ideas and run with them and somehow get away with whatever we want. For example, we decided we wanted to have a big production to celebrate Black History Month, so she sat down and wrote this elaborate play and then we decided which pieces of music we were going to add and stuck songs here and there into the scenes and now we have got the whole school involved in it. The art department is making all the props and scenery (and omg, there is a lot!), teachers are volunteering to sew costumes, and we even have staff members singing in some of the scenes. We even found a local guy to come and pose as MLK, Jr. and deliver the speech! I think we are also going to call the local cable channel to come out and broadcast it on TV as well. I'm excited to see the final production. It's gonna be crazy!
So yeeeeah. Having a teammate at school is great, and I love that we have similar ideas on how to do stuff. I can't wait until next year already!
Tomorrow my drummers are playing at the intramural basketball game again, since everybody loved it the last time. I'm not really looking forward to having to wake up so early on a Saturday, but it will be fun once I get there.
So really, I'm happy with life right now. There is some bad shit happening too, but it's all being overshadowed by the awesomeness. It just doesn't even matter.
Wow. I've really missed livejournal. This was good.
Okay…Christmas in Michigan
It was awesome to be home, I got to see everyone I wanted to see (except Charlie, who never called me. Pshh.), and I generally had a fantastic time with everyone. But I realize now that Michigan can never be my home. I mean, virtually nothing has changed at home. When I arrived, it felt like I had never left. Everything looked the same, my family acted the same, and it even smelled the same. At first the familiarity made me feel a sense of completeness and I began to wonder why I left in the first place, but the feeling faded very quickly. The fact that my family has not changed one iota is the exact solitary reason why I wanted to move out of state. I feel like I’ve grown so much as a human in the time I’ve been away and it was a growth that never would have occurred if I’d stayed close to home. But I guess I was just hoping that my family would grow a bit too. I’m certain now that nothing ever changes just because you want it too. I can’t say that the trip was a bad thing. I felt a huge sense of relief for all of the guilt associated with “deserting” your family and friends. I no longer feel that guilt and am assured that my choices are leading me down the right path in life.
I really loved visiting with friends, though. I got to see everyone from Alma that I wanted to see (except Marie and Jana, booface!), I reconnected with Ryan, an old high school friend, and we had a great time, and I also got to see my other high school friend Amanda and meet her little baby boy. I feel like I still have good connections with all my friends in Michigan and those friendships that are fading, are certainly not due to my lack of trying. So, I don’t feel any remorse for losing touch with people that make no attempt to keep in touch with me. It’s just a part of life I guess.
But all-in-all:
Home is a nice place to visit, but I wouldn’t want to live there.
Boyfriend!? Yippee Skippee!
This is for Charlotte who asked me to elaborate online, but I was just too tired by the time I got her message to respond.
I met a guy named Jason just before I left to go home for the holidays and then kind of forgot all about him until I returned, but he contacted me and we hung out a few times after I got back. We immediately clicked personality-wise, and have yet to run out of things to talk about. I am still so amazed by him because he is not a typical guy at all. He is incredibly chivalrous (which, omg! swoon!), cooks for me all the time, offers me foot rubs on a daily basis, is very close to his family without being a mommas-boy, and he’s completely crazy about me, too. Sometimes I honestly have to pinch myself because I can’t believe I found a guy this fantastic. I’m smitten, to say the least, and am very excited at the possibilities this relationship brings to my life. I never thought I would be one of those puky, lovesick kind of people, but I am and I can’t help it. I’m enamored.
Work has been going great too even though I'm already reaching the burnout point for the year. I think it's the weather. It has been so warm and sunny that my brain has just shifted into Spring mode and I feel like school should be out soon. I mean, it really shouldn't be 82 degrees in February, even in NC! When it's warm, all I can think about is laying out on the beach, which makes going to work in the morning REEEEAAALLLYY difficult. But I'm loving my job more and more and I really love that I have a partner in crime this year. Victoria and I just take ideas and run with them and somehow get away with whatever we want. For example, we decided we wanted to have a big production to celebrate Black History Month, so she sat down and wrote this elaborate play and then we decided which pieces of music we were going to add and stuck songs here and there into the scenes and now we have got the whole school involved in it. The art department is making all the props and scenery (and omg, there is a lot!), teachers are volunteering to sew costumes, and we even have staff members singing in some of the scenes. We even found a local guy to come and pose as MLK, Jr. and deliver the speech! I think we are also going to call the local cable channel to come out and broadcast it on TV as well. I'm excited to see the final production. It's gonna be crazy!
So yeeeeah. Having a teammate at school is great, and I love that we have similar ideas on how to do stuff. I can't wait until next year already!
Tomorrow my drummers are playing at the intramural basketball game again, since everybody loved it the last time. I'm not really looking forward to having to wake up so early on a Saturday, but it will be fun once I get there.
So really, I'm happy with life right now. There is some bad shit happening too, but it's all being overshadowed by the awesomeness. It just doesn't even matter.
Wow. I've really missed livejournal. This was good.