why can't i fast?

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i'm disgusting. i ate nothing all day saturday, and then my body revolted against me yesterday and i had a 1988 calorie all-day binge. i was doing so well! now i'm huge.

i need to regain self-control.

it's so gloomy outside. maybe this will be a week when i don't even care to think about eating. i'll just forget about it completely.