yep
so today was a "normal" eating day. "normal" meaning like every other "normal" obese person in this country. i went out for lunch - mexican [fried fats and sour cream], but i got a relatively small [in size] meal. it was taquitos... tiny portions of meat rolled up in corn tortillas and fried. i put lots of spicy salsa on it.
after lunch i slept until dinner, which was pretty much a square meal. my boyfriend says not to feel guilty about eating a meal like that, because it's "balanced".... i guess it's better than binging on candy or whatever, but it's still hundreds of calories. sick. i had about 3-4 ounces of grilled beef, a small baked potato, and asparagus [mm]. however, i did end up having a bowl of ice cream for dessert, and i had to try one of these fried dough & sugar beastly things that my sister was making for school.
i drank water today. tomorrow, i'm doing liquids only. and thursday too. tomorrow evening i plan on going shopping with the mother - right at the time i start to get hungry. i will drink juices and have boullion to keep the pangs of hunger away. i will drink green tea like crazy.
i want to go grocery shopping and get celery and organic vegetables and broths and make soup.
i can't wait to get back to school and avoid mealtimes altogether. i'll do liquid fasts at school. i'll drink coffee like mk - i'll pretend the cappuchinos i get on campus are from starbucks. i'll drink juice and take multivitamins and never eat junk food again.
also i've discovered this today:
i will not weigh more than 120 pounds. ever again.
after lunch i slept until dinner, which was pretty much a square meal. my boyfriend says not to feel guilty about eating a meal like that, because it's "balanced".... i guess it's better than binging on candy or whatever, but it's still hundreds of calories. sick. i had about 3-4 ounces of grilled beef, a small baked potato, and asparagus [mm]. however, i did end up having a bowl of ice cream for dessert, and i had to try one of these fried dough & sugar beastly things that my sister was making for school.
i drank water today. tomorrow, i'm doing liquids only. and thursday too. tomorrow evening i plan on going shopping with the mother - right at the time i start to get hungry. i will drink juices and have boullion to keep the pangs of hunger away. i will drink green tea like crazy.
i want to go grocery shopping and get celery and organic vegetables and broths and make soup.
i can't wait to get back to school and avoid mealtimes altogether. i'll do liquid fasts at school. i'll drink coffee like mk - i'll pretend the cappuchinos i get on campus are from starbucks. i'll drink juice and take multivitamins and never eat junk food again.
also i've discovered this today:
i will not weigh more than 120 pounds. ever again.