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Work. Oh my god I hate my office job. I had this guy call today, and just take up SO much of my FUCKING time, talking about terms and numbers I didn't know, and just unnecessarily explaining the shit out of everything. I kept trying to transfer him and OH MAN! It had nothing to really do with us personally! It was for one of our broker's independent fucking events, we know so little about it, wtf. So this guy is going on and on about Medicare and ~new laws~ and blah blah, tears are LITERALLY welling up in my eyes because I am THAT fucking frustrated, and then he makes some comment like, "I don't know if you have Medicare but--" and I was like, "No, I'm only 22, lol~". HE THEN TAKES THE OPPORTUNITY TO GO ON ABOUT HOW "HE FIGURED" AND THAT "THAT'S THE AGE GROUP HE'S USUALLY ATTRACTED TO, LOL. IT EXPLAINS WHY HE'S NEVER BEEN MARRIED. AT 66. IT'S A SHAME YOU'RE NOT IN THIS STATE LOL!" AND HE KEPT GOING WITH IT. LIKE, IT WAS SO UNCOMFORTABLE, I CANNOT EVEN. I told him that 66 was extremely out of my age range and he just thought this whole one-sided flirtation was just hilarious and adorable. NO. AND! Then there was another guy who called probably 20 times today, asking for Kelly, and Kelly doesn't want to talk to him so of course *I* get yelled at. I eventually got so fed up that I was like, "LOOK. HE HAS YOUR MESSAGE. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN PHYSICALLY DO TO MAKE HIM CALL YOU BACK FASTER." Yeah, he called back even after THAT. And then got pissed that I left him on hold. He wanted me to check in with him every couple of minutes and give him a running commentary about Kelly and where he was and if he was available. SORRY, I HAVE SHIT TO DO OTHER THAN STARE AT YOUR PHONE LIGHT. Christ! Die! All of you idiots! OH MY GOD! AND!! My boss comes up and asks me why I didn't show up last Monday. UM, MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME I DIDN'T HAVE TO. On your way out, you noted that there was our ~conference~ so no one would really be in, so you asked if I wanted to even come in. I said, "Honestly I'd rather be on set but I can if you need me to" and then you said, "Meh, *shrug*, do whatever you want, it's up to you. Bye!" NO, SERIOUSLY, I REMEMBER WHERE YOU WERE STANDING AND WHAT I WAS DOING DURING ALL OF THIS. IT HAPPENED.
Previous entry: Yes, my mom moved to Vegas. Don't feel bad - I hadn't really mentioned it aside from brief bits or maybe some comment conversations, but I'd known about it for awhile. I didn't write about it because I wasn't sure it would actually pan out. But yeah, she's out there for three years (as of now, IDK), opening her own broker-dealer firm. I am super proud of her. She's keeping our house here, so no worries, I just have it basically to myself now (because my sister is living down at school) and she even said I can redecorate. My sister even took the dog with her so I have immense amounts of quiet and omg I can sleep and shower whenever I want. No but after this movie is done, I'm going out there, I was thinking for a week or two but she told me to stay for a month or more. I have the option of working too, if I want it, and maybe I will but right now I am so overworked that I just want to do absolutely nothing for at least the first week. But FUCK yeah I am seeing Celine out there, okay. With gentleflower! I'm going to go down to LA, too.
I read Psychology Today today when I was done doing mail and I was horrified to see that they want to add introversion to the DSM-V. My jaw hit the floor. So that's a disorder, now? Like you're fucked up if your head is entertaining enough in its own right to not need constant social stimulation from outside sources? I know I can be outgoing and social at times and I know that no one thinks of me as introverted because I'm so physically loud and dance all the time, but I do consider myself more so an introvert. I love my own company so much, I LOVE being left the hell alone, and if I don't get that time, I start to freak out. I need more alone time than I do social time, otherwise I am extremely off-center and unhappy. ALSO!! A lot of it has to do with specific people, too! Maybe I WOULD be more extroverted if 92% of the population didn't bore the shit out of me and/or constantly disappoint me with their stupidity. Like, that's the ONLY reason I'm able to tolerate being so social right now - these people are legit fucking interesting for once in my life. Why is introversion a problem. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, WHY AM I SO DEFENSIVE OVER THIS. IDEK. I guess I just hate when the world tries to convince people to love themselves and be comfortable in their skin, but when people actually DO, suddenly it's a problem, it's either cockiness or mental illness. WHATAYA WANT FROM ME. (lol I sing this song in my head on a daily basis, it seems. "Liss, go get a picture, I need one for a prop", so I go to get one and then someone yells, "NO! GOD! you can't do that!!!" - there is at least one moment of this nature every single day, so I sing Adam Lambert in my head as I run away crying. CRYING, I SAY.)
Previous entry: Yes, my mom moved to Vegas. Don't feel bad - I hadn't really mentioned it aside from brief bits or maybe some comment conversations, but I'd known about it for awhile. I didn't write about it because I wasn't sure it would actually pan out. But yeah, she's out there for three years (as of now, IDK), opening her own broker-dealer firm. I am super proud of her. She's keeping our house here, so no worries, I just have it basically to myself now (because my sister is living down at school) and she even said I can redecorate. My sister even took the dog with her so I have immense amounts of quiet and omg I can sleep and shower whenever I want. No but after this movie is done, I'm going out there, I was thinking for a week or two but she told me to stay for a month or more. I have the option of working too, if I want it, and maybe I will but right now I am so overworked that I just want to do absolutely nothing for at least the first week. But FUCK yeah I am seeing Celine out there, okay. With gentleflower! I'm going to go down to LA, too.
I read Psychology Today today when I was done doing mail and I was horrified to see that they want to add introversion to the DSM-V. My jaw hit the floor. So that's a disorder, now? Like you're fucked up if your head is entertaining enough in its own right to not need constant social stimulation from outside sources? I know I can be outgoing and social at times and I know that no one thinks of me as introverted because I'm so physically loud and dance all the time, but I do consider myself more so an introvert. I love my own company so much, I LOVE being left the hell alone, and if I don't get that time, I start to freak out. I need more alone time than I do social time, otherwise I am extremely off-center and unhappy. ALSO!! A lot of it has to do with specific people, too! Maybe I WOULD be more extroverted if 92% of the population didn't bore the shit out of me and/or constantly disappoint me with their stupidity. Like, that's the ONLY reason I'm able to tolerate being so social right now - these people are legit fucking interesting for once in my life. Why is introversion a problem. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, WHY AM I SO DEFENSIVE OVER THIS. IDEK. I guess I just hate when the world tries to convince people to love themselves and be comfortable in their skin, but when people actually DO, suddenly it's a problem, it's either cockiness or mental illness. WHATAYA WANT FROM ME. (lol I sing this song in my head on a daily basis, it seems. "Liss, go get a picture, I need one for a prop", so I go to get one and then someone yells, "NO! GOD! you can't do that!!!" - there is at least one moment of this nature every single day, so I sing Adam Lambert in my head as I run away crying. CRYING, I SAY.)