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Um. So. You can't wink and call me Scully in the middle of a fight, watch and make out to X-Files with me years later, tell me you remember my speech on Roswell that I gave in high school, have sex with me and put on conspiracy theory radio afterwards, and then ignore me when I ask you to go see Paranormal Activity today. I'm not even asking because I want on you! I'm asking because you are honest to god the only person I know IRL who appreciates this shit with me! I'm not asking for a date, I'm asking for a smart person who's legit interested in this shit to just hang out for two hours. What is the issue. And like, I'm sorry I've been talking about guys so much lately, I know it's annoying. But it's what's legit going on right now and I don't want to hide my life away.
I'm going for drinks with Coley at 7. And then I'll be bored off my ass for the rest of the night, thanks.
Derek did call like he said he would. Not all men are idiots. We're going dancing next Thursday, and how much do I love that he booked me a week in advance. I'm excited, I've had a small crush on him since I was just a kid, we went to grade school together.
I'm just so pissed off though because I want to see this film so badly and I did all of that voting for it online and shit so that it'd play here and it comes out tonight at ~12:01~ and I would like to BE THERE, please.
Seriously. I hate everyone and I am so unhappy with life right now. (I will admit that I'm hormonal, and I can recognize that, but it doesn't make it feel any better.)
EDIT: this woman just asked me if I was still interested in doing an internship on Final Cut and I don't know what to do about this. I'm just not in a good frame of mind right now to address this but I feel like I have to and I just want everyone IRL to go away. It excites me that she would ask, really it does, and I'd love to do it, I just wish I knew exactly what it was and if I'd love it or hate it or not because I'm so scared of committing myself to something I'd hate or something that would like, take away my love of editing. That's the biggest fear I have in life and that's honestly probably why I'm afraid to go and get a job in a field that I'm actually interested - I worry that if it turns into work, that it will take all of my love of it away and I don't want to lose anything.
I'm going for drinks with Coley at 7. And then I'll be bored off my ass for the rest of the night, thanks.
Derek did call like he said he would. Not all men are idiots. We're going dancing next Thursday, and how much do I love that he booked me a week in advance. I'm excited, I've had a small crush on him since I was just a kid, we went to grade school together.
I'm just so pissed off though because I want to see this film so badly and I did all of that voting for it online and shit so that it'd play here and it comes out tonight at ~12:01~ and I would like to BE THERE, please.
Seriously. I hate everyone and I am so unhappy with life right now. (I will admit that I'm hormonal, and I can recognize that, but it doesn't make it feel any better.)
EDIT: this woman just asked me if I was still interested in doing an internship on Final Cut and I don't know what to do about this. I'm just not in a good frame of mind right now to address this but I feel like I have to and I just want everyone IRL to go away. It excites me that she would ask, really it does, and I'd love to do it, I just wish I knew exactly what it was and if I'd love it or hate it or not because I'm so scared of committing myself to something I'd hate or something that would like, take away my love of editing. That's the biggest fear I have in life and that's honestly probably why I'm afraid to go and get a job in a field that I'm actually interested - I worry that if it turns into work, that it will take all of my love of it away and I don't want to lose anything.