Being a people pleaser myself, I know how hard it can be to STOP being like that. Not sure about your sister, but I am incredibly insecure. This does not mean that it justifies my being a please--it doesn't. In fact, I hate this part of my personality. Absolutely hate it. And I know how annoying it can be to others, which is why I shut myself in my room most days, for fear that I'll ruin things for other people. This might sound ridiculous to you, and I'm sure it is (heck, I think I'm ridiculous,) but knowing that this is bad for my psyche does not make it easier to stop caring what other people think of you. Again, I don't know your sister, so I can only speak for myself, but when you've spent most of your life being told you're not good enough, then you'll do almost ANYTHING for some form of acceptance. Sad, isn't it? Yeah, I think so, too. I want to NOT be like this, so bad. I think I'd be a much happier person if I could just say, screw it, if you don't like what I'm doing, GTFO, but then I'm too much of a coward (at least right now) to do that because I have close to zero self-confidence and I think that I'd end up alone, which, once you've experienced before, you never want to experience again, so...
IDK, sorry for all that. This is YOUR ranting space, not mine, LOL. It's just that this is something I'm struggling with a lot and, ugh, okay, I have no idea what possessed me to write all that, haha. *runs off*
IDK, sorry for all that. This is YOUR ranting space, not mine, LOL. It's just that this is something I'm struggling with a lot and, ugh, okay, I have no idea what possessed me to write all that, haha. *runs off*
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