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I know I said I wouldn't bring it up again, and I hope this is the last time (not making any promises this time) I have to, but I need to clear things up. I feel like so many people missed the point of my WGA rant, and that really bothers me. The point I was trying to make was: support it if YOU want, not if your f-list wants. I was just trying to encourage people to make sure that they were fighting for their own, right reasons. And it's not even specific to the WGA - it's how I feel about any cause or situation in life. Everything worked out wrong yesterday, and I feel the need to address it.
1.) This strike is NOT worth losing friends over. I hope I didn't have to learn that the hard way.
2.) I never meant to be rude or judgmental - I was just saying how I felt. So, I'll apologize for the WAY I went about it, but not for my opinion. I'm sorry I didn't handle it better or use more mature words.
3.) I DO understand why they're doing it. And I DO support them. I'm kind of upset that people thought I was 100% anti-strike. If I was directly involved, I'd be the first fucking person on that picket line, it's just the way I am. But I'm not directly involved, so I guess I'm going to take a sort of "neutral" stand, because while I DO support it, I don't plan on being part of any of these groups or organizations or signing any petitions. I hope that doesn't make me a bad person, but it's what I'm doing and going to continue to do. I'd rather devote my time and energy to a cause that's personal to ME. Another thing that bothers me is that... well, people are getting screwed out of fair compensation all over the world, and they have been for years. Why does it seem that my f-list has never had a mass campaign for anything or anyone else? I KNOW you guys each individually have cared about stuff before, but I've never seen so much of one cause. It bothers me that everyone gets so supportive of things relating to Hollywood just because it's, well, Hollywood. IDK. I'm not denying that there is a HUGE issue of unfairness here for the writers. Because there is. But it's not the first time, and it won't be the last time that people are being paid unfairly. I mean, look at women. We're still, for the most part, paid less in the workplace. I'm just saying... I don't even know what I'm saying. But I really hope you now what I mean.
4.) Lisa Edelstein was on the picket line yesterday. I WANT to be excited as FUCK that she is out there, but I feel like people would accuse me of being a hypocrite or not making any sense. I'm just WAITING for someone to throw it in my face. I hate that I don't feel welcome to flail about it, because that's not right. tenacious_err, I know how you felt when you made your fandom post awhile back. So, I just need to talk about how I really really respect her for being out there, and I love her more than I ever have for fighting for something that she wants, and quite literally jumping into traffic for it - I would do the same thing for something that meant as much to me. Now the whole issue I got from people yesterday was that it shouldn't matter what people's motives are because a.) I can't ever possibly know someone else's motives anyway, and b.) who cares, as long as they're fighting for something. You're right. I CAN'T ever know, and it DOESN'T matter as long as they're fighting for some type of good. I guess I just have issues with the world in general because I honestly feel that our generation doesn't think as much as we should. Notice how I said "I feel". That doesn't mean I'm right. It's just what I personally believe.
5.) I really sort of hate that I even feel the need to do this. I'm very conflicted, in more ways than one, over this strike, but one thing I DO know for sure is that I just want it to be over. I don't like to deal with things ever - I prefer to stuff them inside or let them go away of their own accord. So that's what I'm waiting for, I guess. I really do hope the writers win, though, you know. I just feel like I'm so hard to explain right now and that I'm not getting out what I'm trying to say. And I'm just waiting to be misunderstood again.
6.) It wasn't an "attack" on anyone personally. It was just the combination of everything everywhere that just pushed me over the edge. If you posted about it and I saw it, yeah, you may have contributed. It doesn't mean you were wrong for posting about it (ON YOUR OWN JOURNAL - I totally understand that. You're allowed to post whatever you want on your own journal, I get that, I really do. But so am I, and that's what I did yesterday), that you were wrong for supporting it, or that my post yesterday was "your fault". I just got, to be incredibly blunt, irritated.
7.) It's a really complicated situation, but underneath all the drama and hypocrisy, I think WGA supporters have a good case to make, and if asked what side I'm on, I AM supporting the WGA. I have been the whole time. But I'm all fucking conflicted because I do feel for all of those people that will be out of work. I guess if it's worth it to them, then good for them, I'm glad they're doing it. I just can't KNOW, because I'm NOT there, and I DON'T know what I'd do if I were one of them. It'd be so easy to say I'd be on board with the writers, but what if I literally couldn't afford to be? Money is such an evil, it really really is. But fuck you, AMPTP, just give them their money. But come on WGA, you're doing what you love, shouldn't that be enough? No one's FORCING you to write television - you can quit if you want. But you shouldn't have to! Why can't you just get paid what you deserve? SEE WHAT I MEAN? I GO BACK AND FORTH, IT DRIVES EVEN *ME* NUTS.
8.) Basically, I apologize if anyone was offended yesterday. Offended by the WAY I executed it, not offended by what I was trying to say. Because I won't apologize for that. I just don't want anyone to be so upset that they'd stop talking to me, or go on a hiatus because of what I said, or look down on me because I offended them. That's what really bothers me. I never meant to chase anyone off or make people feel like they had to defend themselves. I'm sorry that post came off as accusatory or anything like that, or made you feel like you had to justify yourself. Because you don't. You never do. You technically don't owe anyone anything, unless you willingly want to give it.
I know I probably contradict myself. I know I'm probably a hypocrite somewhere in there too. But, whatever. I hate how I feel like I backed myself into a corner yesterday, because now I feel like if I DO have something positive to say on the subject, or I DO feel like commenting on someone's post about it, or I DO feel like using this icon somewhere, that I'd get yelled at. So the long and short of it is that I learned a lesson yesterday.
p.s. I want to delete this because I just realized that I don't have to explain myself to anyone. But I'm leaving it because it took forever to write.
1.) This strike is NOT worth losing friends over. I hope I didn't have to learn that the hard way.
2.) I never meant to be rude or judgmental - I was just saying how I felt. So, I'll apologize for the WAY I went about it, but not for my opinion. I'm sorry I didn't handle it better or use more mature words.
3.) I DO understand why they're doing it. And I DO support them. I'm kind of upset that people thought I was 100% anti-strike. If I was directly involved, I'd be the first fucking person on that picket line, it's just the way I am. But I'm not directly involved, so I guess I'm going to take a sort of "neutral" stand, because while I DO support it, I don't plan on being part of any of these groups or organizations or signing any petitions. I hope that doesn't make me a bad person, but it's what I'm doing and going to continue to do. I'd rather devote my time and energy to a cause that's personal to ME. Another thing that bothers me is that... well, people are getting screwed out of fair compensation all over the world, and they have been for years. Why does it seem that my f-list has never had a mass campaign for anything or anyone else? I KNOW you guys each individually have cared about stuff before, but I've never seen so much of one cause. It bothers me that everyone gets so supportive of things relating to Hollywood just because it's, well, Hollywood. IDK. I'm not denying that there is a HUGE issue of unfairness here for the writers. Because there is. But it's not the first time, and it won't be the last time that people are being paid unfairly. I mean, look at women. We're still, for the most part, paid less in the workplace. I'm just saying... I don't even know what I'm saying. But I really hope you now what I mean.
4.) Lisa Edelstein was on the picket line yesterday. I WANT to be excited as FUCK that she is out there, but I feel like people would accuse me of being a hypocrite or not making any sense. I'm just WAITING for someone to throw it in my face. I hate that I don't feel welcome to flail about it, because that's not right. tenacious_err, I know how you felt when you made your fandom post awhile back. So, I just need to talk about how I really really respect her for being out there, and I love her more than I ever have for fighting for something that she wants, and quite literally jumping into traffic for it - I would do the same thing for something that meant as much to me. Now the whole issue I got from people yesterday was that it shouldn't matter what people's motives are because a.) I can't ever possibly know someone else's motives anyway, and b.) who cares, as long as they're fighting for something. You're right. I CAN'T ever know, and it DOESN'T matter as long as they're fighting for some type of good. I guess I just have issues with the world in general because I honestly feel that our generation doesn't think as much as we should. Notice how I said "I feel". That doesn't mean I'm right. It's just what I personally believe.
5.) I really sort of hate that I even feel the need to do this. I'm very conflicted, in more ways than one, over this strike, but one thing I DO know for sure is that I just want it to be over. I don't like to deal with things ever - I prefer to stuff them inside or let them go away of their own accord. So that's what I'm waiting for, I guess. I really do hope the writers win, though, you know. I just feel like I'm so hard to explain right now and that I'm not getting out what I'm trying to say. And I'm just waiting to be misunderstood again.
6.) It wasn't an "attack" on anyone personally. It was just the combination of everything everywhere that just pushed me over the edge. If you posted about it and I saw it, yeah, you may have contributed. It doesn't mean you were wrong for posting about it (ON YOUR OWN JOURNAL - I totally understand that. You're allowed to post whatever you want on your own journal, I get that, I really do. But so am I, and that's what I did yesterday), that you were wrong for supporting it, or that my post yesterday was "your fault". I just got, to be incredibly blunt, irritated.
7.) It's a really complicated situation, but underneath all the drama and hypocrisy, I think WGA supporters have a good case to make, and if asked what side I'm on, I AM supporting the WGA. I have been the whole time. But I'm all fucking conflicted because I do feel for all of those people that will be out of work. I guess if it's worth it to them, then good for them, I'm glad they're doing it. I just can't KNOW, because I'm NOT there, and I DON'T know what I'd do if I were one of them. It'd be so easy to say I'd be on board with the writers, but what if I literally couldn't afford to be? Money is such an evil, it really really is. But fuck you, AMPTP, just give them their money. But come on WGA, you're doing what you love, shouldn't that be enough? No one's FORCING you to write television - you can quit if you want. But you shouldn't have to! Why can't you just get paid what you deserve? SEE WHAT I MEAN? I GO BACK AND FORTH, IT DRIVES EVEN *ME* NUTS.
8.) Basically, I apologize if anyone was offended yesterday. Offended by the WAY I executed it, not offended by what I was trying to say. Because I won't apologize for that. I just don't want anyone to be so upset that they'd stop talking to me, or go on a hiatus because of what I said, or look down on me because I offended them. That's what really bothers me. I never meant to chase anyone off or make people feel like they had to defend themselves. I'm sorry that post came off as accusatory or anything like that, or made you feel like you had to justify yourself. Because you don't. You never do. You technically don't owe anyone anything, unless you willingly want to give it.
I know I probably contradict myself. I know I'm probably a hypocrite somewhere in there too. But, whatever. I hate how I feel like I backed myself into a corner yesterday, because now I feel like if I DO have something positive to say on the subject, or I DO feel like commenting on someone's post about it, or I DO feel like using this icon somewhere, that I'd get yelled at. So the long and short of it is that I learned a lesson yesterday.
p.s. I want to delete this because I just realized that I don't have to explain myself to anyone. But I'm leaving it because it took forever to write.