YOU'RE AN ALCOHOLIC!!
I JUST WANTED AN EXCUSE TO USE MY NEW ICON. *points*.
Today... hmm wow. Today was so unbelievably bittersweet, I couldn't even explain it all to you if I tried. More sweet though than bitter, I think. I woke up to rain. ♥. I hate that the world is so big. I hate that people can't be together. I hate that people can't even have enough precious minutes together to take a walk. Something as simple and cheap as a walk. And I can't even have that. Why does there have to be water and languages and 500 other barriers that separate people who just want to be. Not even talk, just be. At the end of a dock. Waiting in a line together. Sitting under a weeping willow tree. It's just not fair. It's just not. I don't understand. I just keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason, and I hope that's true, and I hope that's enough.
I went to go get cheesy bread again because I go though food in phases. And it's cheesy bread right now. I ran into a friend from 8th grade, and even though I really wanted time to myself (I brought my computer because I love just sitting in that pizza place with my computer and cheesy bread), I sat with her. And it was FUN. I laughed a lot. We told all of her friends a bunch of crazy stories from middle school. They didn't think they were that funny. But Emily and I were dying. It's really important that you see these old friends once in awhile - those friends that know where you've been. Hold onto them.
forensic_angel made a collage of me today. With a beautiful piece of poetry that she wrote on it. At first, I didn't understand or know how i felt about it, but then i got extremely elated when I realized that this is what happens to celebrities every day. I have my first piece of fan art. ♥. And then i was more than okay with it and just really really happy. It's kind of weird. It made me think about what would go through Lisa's head if she ever saw anything I ever made about her. It's beautiful and touching but at the same time, it's kind of like, "me? why? im just me." I dont know. But thank you, for the insight. It's lovely.
I woke up to the most gorgeous texts. ♥. I was in and out of bed a lot this morning. girlie_girl_23 & angiescully, thanks for giving me a reason to open my eyes. Because I really really didn't feel like it at all this morning. Tiff, I talked to my mom tonight and I told her what you said. But the way she talked about it, we'll be okay. She was very logical and just by the way she sounded, it sounds like I'll be okay. ♥ God, you're sweet. That was so sweet. We'll be in touch though, k? And Ang, that was just... idk. Perfect. And thanks for everything today, looking at my stuff and everything for me. And crazyvictoria - your email. Beautiful. I'm using it as we speak. It's gorgeous, thank you. And all of you that left me advice about my parents lately. It really means a lot. And I'd go respond to all of you individually, but I'm just not up to it. I wanted to let you know though, that your words haven't gone unread or underappreciated.
I just wished on an eyelash.
I kinda wanna do a photography picspam later. I'll get some of my shots together for you guys maybe. ♥ ♥ ♥
Today... hmm wow. Today was so unbelievably bittersweet, I couldn't even explain it all to you if I tried. More sweet though than bitter, I think. I woke up to rain. ♥. I hate that the world is so big. I hate that people can't be together. I hate that people can't even have enough precious minutes together to take a walk. Something as simple and cheap as a walk. And I can't even have that. Why does there have to be water and languages and 500 other barriers that separate people who just want to be. Not even talk, just be. At the end of a dock. Waiting in a line together. Sitting under a weeping willow tree. It's just not fair. It's just not. I don't understand. I just keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason, and I hope that's true, and I hope that's enough.
I went to go get cheesy bread again because I go though food in phases. And it's cheesy bread right now. I ran into a friend from 8th grade, and even though I really wanted time to myself (I brought my computer because I love just sitting in that pizza place with my computer and cheesy bread), I sat with her. And it was FUN. I laughed a lot. We told all of her friends a bunch of crazy stories from middle school. They didn't think they were that funny. But Emily and I were dying. It's really important that you see these old friends once in awhile - those friends that know where you've been. Hold onto them.
forensic_angel made a collage of me today. With a beautiful piece of poetry that she wrote on it. At first, I didn't understand or know how i felt about it, but then i got extremely elated when I realized that this is what happens to celebrities every day. I have my first piece of fan art. ♥. And then i was more than okay with it and just really really happy. It's kind of weird. It made me think about what would go through Lisa's head if she ever saw anything I ever made about her. It's beautiful and touching but at the same time, it's kind of like, "me? why? im just me." I dont know. But thank you, for the insight. It's lovely.
I woke up to the most gorgeous texts. ♥. I was in and out of bed a lot this morning. girlie_girl_23 & angiescully, thanks for giving me a reason to open my eyes. Because I really really didn't feel like it at all this morning. Tiff, I talked to my mom tonight and I told her what you said. But the way she talked about it, we'll be okay. She was very logical and just by the way she sounded, it sounds like I'll be okay. ♥ God, you're sweet. That was so sweet. We'll be in touch though, k? And Ang, that was just... idk. Perfect. And thanks for everything today, looking at my stuff and everything for me. And crazyvictoria - your email. Beautiful. I'm using it as we speak. It's gorgeous, thank you. And all of you that left me advice about my parents lately. It really means a lot. And I'd go respond to all of you individually, but I'm just not up to it. I wanted to let you know though, that your words haven't gone unread or underappreciated.
I just wished on an eyelash.
I kinda wanna do a photography picspam later. I'll get some of my shots together for you guys maybe. ♥ ♥ ♥