FUCKING STOP.
THIS IS ONE OF THOSE NIGHTS WHERE I SERIOUSLY WOULDN'T HAVE ANY QUALMS ABOUT THROWING MY PHONE IN THE TOILET. STOP. BUGGING. ME. SAKJSGDFADKJFHDJKSHFA GOD. I HATE PEOPLE. I REALLY DO. I HATE BEING SOCIAL. I HATE MAKING PLANS. I HATE MY FAMILY TELLING ME THEY MISS ME. I REALLY REALLY DO. STOP. EVERYONE STOP. TEXTING AND CALLING. I JUST NEED TO BE FUCKING LEFT ALONE.
LOOK DAD, IT'S GREAT THAT YOU'RE FINALLY REALIZING THAT I'M A GREAT KID AND YOU'RE A SHITTY FATHER, REALLY IT IS. AFTER 18 YEARS, IT'S ABOUT TIME FOR A REVELATION AND IM GLAD IT'S HITTING YOU. BUT CAN YOU PLEASE SAY ALL OF THESE THINGS WHEN YOU'RE NOT DRUNK AND WHEN YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY CALLED ME TWICE TONIGHT AND PROMISED YOU WOULDN'T CALL AGAIN. PLEASE. I MEAN, IM GLAD YOU FEEL THAT WAY. AND IM GLAD YOU REALIZE THAT YOU'RE A FUCK UP. AND IM GLAD YOU REALIZE HOW GREAT I TURNED OUT DESPITE YOU AND YOUR BITCHY EX-WIFE. AND IM GLAD YOU YELLED AT ME FOR CALLING YOU BY YOUR FIRST NAME INSTEAD OF 'DAD'. BUT YOU HAVE TO STOP DRUNK DIALING. IN FACT? CUT BACK ON THE ALCOHOL IN GEN. THAT'D BE REALLY NICE. THANK GOD YOUR RINGTONE IS AN OBNOXIOUS THING I HATE ANYWAYS (I DID IT ON PURPOSE). BECAUSE IF I DIDNT HATE IT ALREADY, ID HATE IT NOW.
LIKE I SERIOUSLY WANT TO BREAK THIS PHONE.
this really sucks. and now i cry because he's so annoying but i put up with it anyways because i have to take what i can get.
it shouldn't be this way.
EDIT: UGH. I have just officially decided that I am spending all day tomorrow with you, Sara, even if you're not here. I need it so bad. So I really hope you're here. I don't really feel like doing much else tomorrow. I just don't. AND OUR FUCKING THING WON'T EVEN LOAD RIGHT NOW. god. i just... i dont even know. i hate this. i dont understand why i cant even have that right now when i so obviously need it.
And you guys. I didn't write this to make you feel afraid to talk to me tonight. I'm rereading it just now, and I'm sorry if I came off that way. It wasn't about you.
LOOK DAD, IT'S GREAT THAT YOU'RE FINALLY REALIZING THAT I'M A GREAT KID AND YOU'RE A SHITTY FATHER, REALLY IT IS. AFTER 18 YEARS, IT'S ABOUT TIME FOR A REVELATION AND IM GLAD IT'S HITTING YOU. BUT CAN YOU PLEASE SAY ALL OF THESE THINGS WHEN YOU'RE NOT DRUNK AND WHEN YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY CALLED ME TWICE TONIGHT AND PROMISED YOU WOULDN'T CALL AGAIN. PLEASE. I MEAN, IM GLAD YOU FEEL THAT WAY. AND IM GLAD YOU REALIZE THAT YOU'RE A FUCK UP. AND IM GLAD YOU REALIZE HOW GREAT I TURNED OUT DESPITE YOU AND YOUR BITCHY EX-WIFE. AND IM GLAD YOU YELLED AT ME FOR CALLING YOU BY YOUR FIRST NAME INSTEAD OF 'DAD'. BUT YOU HAVE TO STOP DRUNK DIALING. IN FACT? CUT BACK ON THE ALCOHOL IN GEN. THAT'D BE REALLY NICE. THANK GOD YOUR RINGTONE IS AN OBNOXIOUS THING I HATE ANYWAYS (I DID IT ON PURPOSE). BECAUSE IF I DIDNT HATE IT ALREADY, ID HATE IT NOW.
LIKE I SERIOUSLY WANT TO BREAK THIS PHONE.
this really sucks. and now i cry because he's so annoying but i put up with it anyways because i have to take what i can get.
it shouldn't be this way.
EDIT: UGH. I have just officially decided that I am spending all day tomorrow with you, Sara, even if you're not here. I need it so bad. So I really hope you're here. I don't really feel like doing much else tomorrow. I just don't. AND OUR FUCKING THING WON'T EVEN LOAD RIGHT NOW. god. i just... i dont even know. i hate this. i dont understand why i cant even have that right now when i so obviously need it.
And you guys. I didn't write this to make you feel afraid to talk to me tonight. I'm rereading it just now, and I'm sorry if I came off that way. It wasn't about you.