a bullet update.
I had written out a huge post about this past week but it's so tl;dr so I'll just present some highlights:
→ Went out in downtown Hollywood with my cousin Rob, I tried sushi like a big girl and didn't hate the salmon. I hated everything else, though. They brought us this cooked neck-area filet or some shit, ~on the house~, even though he told them I was his cousin and it wasn't a date after I chopstick!failed with this huge-ass roll and he had to hold it up for me. Anyway, I bring it up because there were tiny fish bones in it, which I DID NOT APPRECIATE. "I am so fucking done with this shit it's not even funny," I said. Then I got drunk, good times. I was hungover all day the next day, literally throwing up until 3pm.ALSO, relevant story: Some guy in a smart car tried to wave himself in front of us on the way to the bar and I was like, "WAIT I KNOW THAT GUY LET HIM IN." I don't actually know him but it was absolutely James St. James and any bff of Lisa's gets to cut in front of me in traffic, okay. I GOTCHU. A tiny thank you for being so sweet to my bb.
→ Lindsey and I had a great night that consisted of Boston Market, spiked lemonade, and Hey Arnold on Netflix. It was weird how much I realized that my childhood cartoons are actually places in my head still.
→ Also, she totally saw me topless - I got up at like noon, and took a shower. I assumed she was at work so when I got out, I put underwear on (thank god) and casually walked into the kitchen to get something for my wet hair. On my way back to the bathroom, I saw her wallet on the table. I was like, "lol that sucks~"... but then I saw her keys next to it. "Oh man that sucks even more. Wait, she couldn't have left without her keys. WAIT... *look over*" Totally still in her bed. She was still half asleep so it didn't quite register, I apologized for scarring her for life. She was like, "No it didn't scar me, I was more like 'Oh. So that's how it is'." LOL.
→ Went to the Newport Beach Film Festival, as the movie we worked on back in 2010 was showing there. We had drinks before and after with the director, unit production manager, and producer that I hate. No, no, it was okay though. He wasn't actively mean to me, just a little standoffish and also I hold grudges, so. The rest of it was fun, and the restaurant was really cool - they had jellyfish light fixtures! Also it was so lovely hearing Sam talk about his kids, how he's "so in love' and how he never thought anything could ever be like that. I can't even.
→ Had a whole day of beach volleyball with Tony and his friends. First quality beach day since I've been here! Fucking finally! I only played two games of volleyball, I don't quite care for it as it hurts my tiny chicken arms. So I basically just laid in the sand and drank beer all day, such quality. Except now I'm sunburned. And it's not even consistent sunburn, it's like random fucking patches that make no sense. But oh my, the ocean. ♥ ♥ ♥
→ I've been having a lot of freak outs lately about what I want to do with my life, worrying about missing my prime, wanting to do something but not sure what to do or where to start. I've slept so much, it worries me how much I sleep and how tired I still am when I wake up. I'm starting to wonder if I have a thyroid problem. So yeah, that's basically been the past two days - I have nothing concrete to show for them and I hate it. Lindsey cried last night about how she's turning 25 and just isn't sure of where she's supposed to be, what she should be doing, what would make her fully happy. So when I went to bed at 4 in the morning, I wrote "You are still young ♥" on the mirror in eyeliner. When I woke up at noon, she'd kissed the mirror and drawn "♥!" We are leaving it up until we move out, I decided, as it's something we both need to remember every day.
→ Went out in downtown Hollywood with my cousin Rob, I tried sushi like a big girl and didn't hate the salmon. I hated everything else, though. They brought us this cooked neck-area filet or some shit, ~on the house~, even though he told them I was his cousin and it wasn't a date after I chopstick!failed with this huge-ass roll and he had to hold it up for me. Anyway, I bring it up because there were tiny fish bones in it, which I DID NOT APPRECIATE. "I am so fucking done with this shit it's not even funny," I said. Then I got drunk, good times. I was hungover all day the next day, literally throwing up until 3pm.ALSO, relevant story: Some guy in a smart car tried to wave himself in front of us on the way to the bar and I was like, "WAIT I KNOW THAT GUY LET HIM IN." I don't actually know him but it was absolutely James St. James and any bff of Lisa's gets to cut in front of me in traffic, okay. I GOTCHU. A tiny thank you for being so sweet to my bb.
→ Lindsey and I had a great night that consisted of Boston Market, spiked lemonade, and Hey Arnold on Netflix. It was weird how much I realized that my childhood cartoons are actually places in my head still.
→ Also, she totally saw me topless - I got up at like noon, and took a shower. I assumed she was at work so when I got out, I put underwear on (thank god) and casually walked into the kitchen to get something for my wet hair. On my way back to the bathroom, I saw her wallet on the table. I was like, "lol that sucks~"... but then I saw her keys next to it. "Oh man that sucks even more. Wait, she couldn't have left without her keys. WAIT... *look over*" Totally still in her bed. She was still half asleep so it didn't quite register, I apologized for scarring her for life. She was like, "No it didn't scar me, I was more like 'Oh. So that's how it is'." LOL.
→ Went to the Newport Beach Film Festival, as the movie we worked on back in 2010 was showing there. We had drinks before and after with the director, unit production manager, and producer that I hate. No, no, it was okay though. He wasn't actively mean to me, just a little standoffish and also I hold grudges, so. The rest of it was fun, and the restaurant was really cool - they had jellyfish light fixtures! Also it was so lovely hearing Sam talk about his kids, how he's "so in love' and how he never thought anything could ever be like that. I can't even.
→ Had a whole day of beach volleyball with Tony and his friends. First quality beach day since I've been here! Fucking finally! I only played two games of volleyball, I don't quite care for it as it hurts my tiny chicken arms. So I basically just laid in the sand and drank beer all day, such quality. Except now I'm sunburned. And it's not even consistent sunburn, it's like random fucking patches that make no sense. But oh my, the ocean. ♥ ♥ ♥
→ I've been having a lot of freak outs lately about what I want to do with my life, worrying about missing my prime, wanting to do something but not sure what to do or where to start. I've slept so much, it worries me how much I sleep and how tired I still am when I wake up. I'm starting to wonder if I have a thyroid problem. So yeah, that's basically been the past two days - I have nothing concrete to show for them and I hate it. Lindsey cried last night about how she's turning 25 and just isn't sure of where she's supposed to be, what she should be doing, what would make her fully happy. So when I went to bed at 4 in the morning, I wrote "You are still young ♥" on the mirror in eyeliner. When I woke up at noon, she'd kissed the mirror and drawn "♥!" We are leaving it up until we move out, I decided, as it's something we both need to remember every day.