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I miss Daniel Rhyne.
I miss our conversations, late night hangouts, back scratches, drives to and from Charlotte, 24 nights, House nights, jokes, and fun times. I must be in that group of people he's steered away from, hoping to find something new. That sucks pretty bad, considering he was one of the two people I knew I could always rely on. I don't understand why having friends is so difficult or why I've been so unhappy with the people around me lately. They seem to not care or have their own cliques, and while Dave and I always make it a point to invite as many people to different events/parties/etc., I tend to always feel left out. I just wish someone would want to come to my place sometime...instead of me always having to go to theirs. And I wish I could be someone's first choice instead of "DaveandAlissa" and have people call me instead of me calling them. Maybe I'm the bad friend...who knows. If I am, I wish someone would tell me so I could fix it. I don't get it...I make good grades, have a job, hold an officer position in ultimate, know a lot of people, and I'd like to consider myself a nice, sincere person. Why do I feel like I have no friends?
Above everything though, I miss Daniel Rhyne.
Anyway, my weekend was awful for completely different reasons. They're not really personal...I just don't want to explain them.
Also, this 5K fundraiser is kicking me in the ass. I'm trying so hard to put this together, and it seems that with everything, you need approval through an application or a permit...which needs to be obtained through an application. I don't know how to get anywhere if I'm trying to apply for this and that before I can apply for this and that and so on. I want desperately for the team to make some money through this fundraiser because there's is going to be a hell of a lot of work I have to put into it...and of course, I'd like to see the team walk away wih money to help out with tournaments, gas money, etc. I want the satisfaction of being a success story rather than a failure, and it scares me that I will fail because I've never done anything like this before.
I need to study for a lab quiz, go to class at 2:30, study some more, go to lab at 5, go to a bio review session at 7, and then study for an enternity for my bio test tomorrow.
I haven't gone running in forever, and that's killing me. I feel la-la-lazy. It's because I've been sick though. I don't want to use that as an excuse, but it's a perfectly good reason, seeing as how I was having a mental/physical breakdown on the futon I haven't had the energy to get off of in a week.
In good news, Top Design premieres tonight, and I've been looking forward to it for a long time. Please let it be about DESIGN and not decorating. If it's not, I will be completely disappointed.
Perhaps I will be in a better mood the next time I post. That would be ideal.
I miss our conversations, late night hangouts, back scratches, drives to and from Charlotte, 24 nights, House nights, jokes, and fun times. I must be in that group of people he's steered away from, hoping to find something new. That sucks pretty bad, considering he was one of the two people I knew I could always rely on. I don't understand why having friends is so difficult or why I've been so unhappy with the people around me lately. They seem to not care or have their own cliques, and while Dave and I always make it a point to invite as many people to different events/parties/etc., I tend to always feel left out. I just wish someone would want to come to my place sometime...instead of me always having to go to theirs. And I wish I could be someone's first choice instead of "DaveandAlissa" and have people call me instead of me calling them. Maybe I'm the bad friend...who knows. If I am, I wish someone would tell me so I could fix it. I don't get it...I make good grades, have a job, hold an officer position in ultimate, know a lot of people, and I'd like to consider myself a nice, sincere person. Why do I feel like I have no friends?
Above everything though, I miss Daniel Rhyne.
Anyway, my weekend was awful for completely different reasons. They're not really personal...I just don't want to explain them.
Also, this 5K fundraiser is kicking me in the ass. I'm trying so hard to put this together, and it seems that with everything, you need approval through an application or a permit...which needs to be obtained through an application. I don't know how to get anywhere if I'm trying to apply for this and that before I can apply for this and that and so on. I want desperately for the team to make some money through this fundraiser because there's is going to be a hell of a lot of work I have to put into it...and of course, I'd like to see the team walk away wih money to help out with tournaments, gas money, etc. I want the satisfaction of being a success story rather than a failure, and it scares me that I will fail because I've never done anything like this before.
I need to study for a lab quiz, go to class at 2:30, study some more, go to lab at 5, go to a bio review session at 7, and then study for an enternity for my bio test tomorrow.
I haven't gone running in forever, and that's killing me. I feel la-la-lazy. It's because I've been sick though. I don't want to use that as an excuse, but it's a perfectly good reason, seeing as how I was having a mental/physical breakdown on the futon I haven't had the energy to get off of in a week.
In good news, Top Design premieres tonight, and I've been looking forward to it for a long time. Please let it be about DESIGN and not decorating. If it's not, I will be completely disappointed.
Perhaps I will be in a better mood the next time I post. That would be ideal.