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Bah, I'm ready for summer to end. I've been annoyed/frustrated/tired way too often, and I want to go back to school. I'm ready for class, tests, anything...as long as it gets me out of Charlotte.
I work a lot. Winchester's season just ended, so that's been giving me a bit more free time. Before it ended though, I was working about 10-11 hours a day. I've been making a lot of money, which is exactly what I wanted.... except that I just wrote a check to my mom today for pretty much everything I've made this summer (fall semester tuition). Now I'm back to basically nothing, so I'm very excited for another paycheck in a week or so.
I dropped my iPod in the water the other day. I just got off the phone with Apple, who basically told me they can't do anything except take my money for a brand new iPod. Lame.
I'm sick of living at home...it's not because my parents and I are fighting or because I can't go out whenever I want. My parents and I don't fight, and I don't have a curfew. I'm sick of everything I own becoming everything my family owns. Things get thrown out, things get moved and I can't find them, etc. I'm so tired of it. And yeah, I realize I share a room with another person when I am in Boone, but she's got her side, and I have mine. It's very seperate.
Trevor works and volunteers for Habitat for Humanity now. Since he doesn't feel very comfortable taking either of my parents' cars, he always takes the Mazda. I take my dad's car, and I don't know when the last time I drove the Mazda was. My dad's car is fine to drive...except that I miss my blue car. It's half mine, and it seems like I always get the crappy end of the deal. I can't bring it to Boone since Trevor is required to come home every three weeks by his school, and he wants it to be in Charlotte for when he's home. Since he has to work and volunteer, he gets the blue car whenever he needs it. I just want to drive my own car. I suggested us selling the Mazda and using the money to get two seperate cars, but Trevor doesn't like that idea.
I've started running just about everyday. By "started", I mean back at the beginning of June. I need an activity that will help me keep in somewhat shape. I like the act of running...kind of. I guess I'm learning to like it. The only problem that I have is that I have to wake up extra early to be able to fit it into my schedule...and THAT I don't like.
I feel like I don't even have a boyfriend because we live in two different cities. I still talk to him on the phone just about every night, but I'm getting so tired of it. When I do see him, it's not like being back in Boone...it just gets incredibly frustrating.
When Winchester ended, families were asked to complete a survey about the team. Only a few people have responded, but I'm already ticked. I worked so hard to be at EVERY practice I could be at (lifeguarding sometimes kept me from practice), I cheered as MUCH as I could during the meets (because I also had to swim in them), I helped the volunteers whenever they needed, my family drove 13 hours back from Illinois on the day of a swim meet just so my brothers and I could swim in it, and I helped organize the coaches for champs. And STILL, there were anonoymous parents claiming I "barely showed up for practice" and didn't work as hard as two of the other coaches. I hate that I look bad just because I had a second job and couldn't be at EVERY morning AND evening practice. I absolutely hate when I try my hardest to make everyone happy, and it never works out. I wear myself out trying to please everybody else, and I don't understand why I do it if I'm just going to get feedback like that. I really do appreciate the parents that applauded my work, talked to me everyday, and were at the practices and meets to truly know what was going on.
Despite feeling like everything is going wrong in my life, I do have a few positive points:
+ By working so much this summer, I hope to not have to work during the school year.
+ My 19th birthday is in exactly one month.
+ Frisbee at the church tonight.
+ My boss is bringing the international guards to Boone to visit App (Aug. 19 and 20) and the mountains before they have to go back to their native countries.
+ I move into my dorm on August 17th and help freshmen move in from 4:30-6:30 pm on the 18th.
+ My family is going to the beach at the end of July/beginning of August, and I have decided to not go with them. Saying I will have the house to myself is not code for "party at Alissa's!" though. I want the house to myself. I want to not be bothered by people. I want a chance to relax.
+ I was able to sleep in for the first time this morning since the beginning of June. I got up at 12, and it was glorious.
Anyway, I've got to go take a shower and drop off some swim lesson/pool party information to the CPM office to get paid for them. Then I've got work from 3:30-9 and frisbee at the church right after that.
I work a lot. Winchester's season just ended, so that's been giving me a bit more free time. Before it ended though, I was working about 10-11 hours a day. I've been making a lot of money, which is exactly what I wanted.... except that I just wrote a check to my mom today for pretty much everything I've made this summer (fall semester tuition). Now I'm back to basically nothing, so I'm very excited for another paycheck in a week or so.
I dropped my iPod in the water the other day. I just got off the phone with Apple, who basically told me they can't do anything except take my money for a brand new iPod. Lame.
I'm sick of living at home...it's not because my parents and I are fighting or because I can't go out whenever I want. My parents and I don't fight, and I don't have a curfew. I'm sick of everything I own becoming everything my family owns. Things get thrown out, things get moved and I can't find them, etc. I'm so tired of it. And yeah, I realize I share a room with another person when I am in Boone, but she's got her side, and I have mine. It's very seperate.
Trevor works and volunteers for Habitat for Humanity now. Since he doesn't feel very comfortable taking either of my parents' cars, he always takes the Mazda. I take my dad's car, and I don't know when the last time I drove the Mazda was. My dad's car is fine to drive...except that I miss my blue car. It's half mine, and it seems like I always get the crappy end of the deal. I can't bring it to Boone since Trevor is required to come home every three weeks by his school, and he wants it to be in Charlotte for when he's home. Since he has to work and volunteer, he gets the blue car whenever he needs it. I just want to drive my own car. I suggested us selling the Mazda and using the money to get two seperate cars, but Trevor doesn't like that idea.
I've started running just about everyday. By "started", I mean back at the beginning of June. I need an activity that will help me keep in somewhat shape. I like the act of running...kind of. I guess I'm learning to like it. The only problem that I have is that I have to wake up extra early to be able to fit it into my schedule...and THAT I don't like.
I feel like I don't even have a boyfriend because we live in two different cities. I still talk to him on the phone just about every night, but I'm getting so tired of it. When I do see him, it's not like being back in Boone...it just gets incredibly frustrating.
When Winchester ended, families were asked to complete a survey about the team. Only a few people have responded, but I'm already ticked. I worked so hard to be at EVERY practice I could be at (lifeguarding sometimes kept me from practice), I cheered as MUCH as I could during the meets (because I also had to swim in them), I helped the volunteers whenever they needed, my family drove 13 hours back from Illinois on the day of a swim meet just so my brothers and I could swim in it, and I helped organize the coaches for champs. And STILL, there were anonoymous parents claiming I "barely showed up for practice" and didn't work as hard as two of the other coaches. I hate that I look bad just because I had a second job and couldn't be at EVERY morning AND evening practice. I absolutely hate when I try my hardest to make everyone happy, and it never works out. I wear myself out trying to please everybody else, and I don't understand why I do it if I'm just going to get feedback like that. I really do appreciate the parents that applauded my work, talked to me everyday, and were at the practices and meets to truly know what was going on.
Despite feeling like everything is going wrong in my life, I do have a few positive points:
+ By working so much this summer, I hope to not have to work during the school year.
+ My 19th birthday is in exactly one month.
+ Frisbee at the church tonight.
+ My boss is bringing the international guards to Boone to visit App (Aug. 19 and 20) and the mountains before they have to go back to their native countries.
+ I move into my dorm on August 17th and help freshmen move in from 4:30-6:30 pm on the 18th.
+ My family is going to the beach at the end of July/beginning of August, and I have decided to not go with them. Saying I will have the house to myself is not code for "party at Alissa's!" though. I want the house to myself. I want to not be bothered by people. I want a chance to relax.
+ I was able to sleep in for the first time this morning since the beginning of June. I got up at 12, and it was glorious.
Anyway, I've got to go take a shower and drop off some swim lesson/pool party information to the CPM office to get paid for them. Then I've got work from 3:30-9 and frisbee at the church right after that.