Update ...
Feeling better about things today. Lots of chats to various people at work. I was meant to be there on Saturday night. It was okay for me to be there. I wasn't the most important person in the room, Christian, Alice and Ellen would not have minded that I was in the room at that moment. There's nothing else I should've or could've done.
That took so long to get my head around.
When telling people, the part that makes me cry, is the bit where I describe listening to a grown man cry and tell his Mum how much he loves her, over and over. I really feel for Christian. I only ever see him cool, calm, collected and he always has it all together all of the time. I knew he'd be a mess, but I wasn't quite expecting what I saw.
I think there are people in this world who are surrounded by and emit light to the world. That sounds very freakin' weird, I know. They are people whose energy is just relaxing to be around, they're positive but not overly so that it's all up in your face. They are calm. They are people that other people want to be around - they're not necessarily the 'cool kids' or 'popular crowd' ... but people want to be around them because everything seems a little bit better when you're around them, even just for a little while. That's what it's like to be around Christian. Alice is very similar, except I get a certain sadness from Alice. There's two other people that I've met who are like that, who I think are surrounded by light - a girl that I work with and someone that I met at a V8 Supercars event.
Ellen's funeral is on Thursday. I'll write about her on Thursday night so that I can share a bit of her story and what made her amazing.
That took so long to get my head around.
When telling people, the part that makes me cry, is the bit where I describe listening to a grown man cry and tell his Mum how much he loves her, over and over. I really feel for Christian. I only ever see him cool, calm, collected and he always has it all together all of the time. I knew he'd be a mess, but I wasn't quite expecting what I saw.
I think there are people in this world who are surrounded by and emit light to the world. That sounds very freakin' weird, I know. They are people whose energy is just relaxing to be around, they're positive but not overly so that it's all up in your face. They are calm. They are people that other people want to be around - they're not necessarily the 'cool kids' or 'popular crowd' ... but people want to be around them because everything seems a little bit better when you're around them, even just for a little while. That's what it's like to be around Christian. Alice is very similar, except I get a certain sadness from Alice. There's two other people that I've met who are like that, who I think are surrounded by light - a girl that I work with and someone that I met at a V8 Supercars event.
Ellen's funeral is on Thursday. I'll write about her on Thursday night so that I can share a bit of her story and what made her amazing.