Random Thoughts
I woke up at 3am and never got back to sleep...so if this is scattered, there's good reason for that. I'm not even going to try to make it make sense.
***I leave for SJW tomorrow. WTF?!? I'm not ready. It's not real to me. I don't have a clear idea anymore of why I'm going or what I hope to get out of the experience. I'm so scared that I'm wasting the time, money, opportunity...
***Eighty-three days left until Baby and I are separated. I'm trying to figure out what needs to be done and floundering. Maybe it will be easier once I can start working on the kids' room? I know I need a dresser and either a twin bed or another crib mattress at least.
***How do you tell a friend hard things that they don't want to hear?
***Birthday wishes...a THOROUGH cleaning of the house, including the carpets, walls, and windows. $300 or so??? It's the only think I can really think of that would last for a little while that I really, truly want. Things like a prenatal massage would be nice for the hour or two, but the relaxation just doesn't last beyond a day. Then it's back to the same-old aches of pregnancy.
***What is it going to take for me to SLEEP??? There's Baby kicking me, there's my relationships, there's my needing to pee a million times if I drink more than 5 oz., there's my general insomnia... I just want everything to go away and let me SLEEP, for pity's sake!
***Where did Boy pick up licking my hair? And this new thing for spitting and drooling is pretty gross, too...
***For the most part, I have the HG under control. Zofran and weekly acupuncture mean that I'm only throwing up occasionally now. That's a good thing! But I find myself angry about it, too...because now I'm like every other pregnant woman and worrying about the weight I'm putting on! It's not FAIR!
***Growing up, my dad promised me it would get easier. I don't think it does. I think it changes before it ever gets easy.
***I've been poking about in "the community" for years...I've met lots of people; lots of names seem familiar to me. But I'm not always sure where/how to place them. Some have made a strong enough impression that I KNOW...but others? *sigh* And then there's the screenname deal... I'm guilty of at least three REGULAR screennames. That doesn't help the tracking capabilities.
***People are being asinine about H1N1...the "swine flu". It's not new, folks. It's been floating around for almost 100 years. There are approximately 6.5 billion people in the world and about 2,500 of them worldwide have gotten this flu bug. Approximately 150 have died. Do the math and get a fricken grip.
***I leave for SJW tomorrow. WTF?!? I'm not ready. It's not real to me. I don't have a clear idea anymore of why I'm going or what I hope to get out of the experience. I'm so scared that I'm wasting the time, money, opportunity...
***Eighty-three days left until Baby and I are separated. I'm trying to figure out what needs to be done and floundering. Maybe it will be easier once I can start working on the kids' room? I know I need a dresser and either a twin bed or another crib mattress at least.
***How do you tell a friend hard things that they don't want to hear?
***Birthday wishes...a THOROUGH cleaning of the house, including the carpets, walls, and windows. $300 or so??? It's the only think I can really think of that would last for a little while that I really, truly want. Things like a prenatal massage would be nice for the hour or two, but the relaxation just doesn't last beyond a day. Then it's back to the same-old aches of pregnancy.
***What is it going to take for me to SLEEP??? There's Baby kicking me, there's my relationships, there's my needing to pee a million times if I drink more than 5 oz., there's my general insomnia... I just want everything to go away and let me SLEEP, for pity's sake!
***Where did Boy pick up licking my hair? And this new thing for spitting and drooling is pretty gross, too...
***For the most part, I have the HG under control. Zofran and weekly acupuncture mean that I'm only throwing up occasionally now. That's a good thing! But I find myself angry about it, too...because now I'm like every other pregnant woman and worrying about the weight I'm putting on! It's not FAIR!
***Growing up, my dad promised me it would get easier. I don't think it does. I think it changes before it ever gets easy.
***I've been poking about in "the community" for years...I've met lots of people; lots of names seem familiar to me. But I'm not always sure where/how to place them. Some have made a strong enough impression that I KNOW...but others? *sigh* And then there's the screenname deal... I'm guilty of at least three REGULAR screennames. That doesn't help the tracking capabilities.
***People are being asinine about H1N1...the "swine flu". It's not new, folks. It's been floating around for almost 100 years. There are approximately 6.5 billion people in the world and about 2,500 of them worldwide have gotten this flu bug. Approximately 150 have died. Do the math and get a fricken grip.