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My mom came by this morning. Apparently my sis has almost the same eating disorder I do. Which means I can totally blame my parents for it. Basically we ate together, we just ate whenever. Which means now my sis and I have problems with compulsive eating. We deal with it differently though. I eat a ton and then purge it all right away (which dissolves porceline I found out), while my sis will binge and then fasts for a few days. Thanks ma and pop.
I just ate two bowls of cereal, a banana, some M&Ms and a pancake with the complete intention of purging. However, I'm totally not going to. It's going to suck, but I'm really going to break this habit. Knowing my sis is going through the same thing makes me feel really guilty about doing it. And the fact that I promised Emmett I wouldn't.
Why is this so hard? People aren't supposed to like throwing up...
I just ate two bowls of cereal, a banana, some M&Ms and a pancake with the complete intention of purging. However, I'm totally not going to. It's going to suck, but I'm really going to break this habit. Knowing my sis is going through the same thing makes me feel really guilty about doing it. And the fact that I promised Emmett I wouldn't.
Why is this so hard? People aren't supposed to like throwing up...