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What's up people? I'm back from the dead. I have pulled my zombie like figure away from the lighttable/sketchpad/drawing horse, whatever, to bring you this update P:
I thought it was an interesting time to update just because so much has been happening with me lately. First off, let me just say that I made it into animation!!!! I'm very proud of myself and very excited to be able to do what so many try to do and I am one of them. And I only had to take fundamentals once. At first the thought of taking fundamentals was frightening to me. Like "I'm not good enough to do this so I have to take another course prior to what I want to do? How upsetting" But once in fundamentals, I really really liked it and enjoyed it and discovered how little I knew. Taking the course taught me so much about what I am capable of and I picked up so many neat tricks that the year was definately useful. I also discovered that almost like 90% of animation kids HAVE taken fundamentals BEFORE animation so it's not like I was some sort of freak. I also discovered that SOOOOOO many people have taken it more than once. A lot of my class is on their second time around. I know of a few on their third... I was told the record was six years before getting in.
I got my acceptance on Monday night. I only know of 5 or 6 or so other people from my class who got the acceptance. That leaves like 24 other people that I know out in the cold, shaking in their boots, waiting till Saturday night, the official day we are to know our results. After I realized that all those other people didn't get acceptances I lost my excitement. These people that I know and care about who have the same dream as I do waiting for their moment that may not come. Before this year, I would have just been like, ah fuck that I'm in and I rock and I don't care what happens to those other people cause my future is set. Now? My stomach feels upset just thinking that I may not be able to spend the next 4 years of my life with these people. I was curious as to know what happened from last year to this year and I can only assume.. That I've changed as a person. I've never believed that people can change.. and that people don't REALLY change. But if that's the case, why am I so different from what I was before. I made a conscious choice near the beginning of the year to enjoy the year and have more fun and to not get angry about things. I didn't really think that I was changing myself, just trying to benefit myself to try and have a better time. I tried to be more relaxed about things and adopted a "Dau" kind of attitude. If something of mine was broken by someone (it seemed to happen a lot for some reason) i didnt get angry, I just told them not to worry about it, it could be fixed (: I haven't gotten angry all year while I've been at school and I've really just found that being a calmer person is better for me. I think.. better mental health? Rather than getting angry and always trying to challenge things. I haven't had to pick any battles or anythign because there's been no conflict. I haven't become a pushover.. I just let those stupid little things slide. I mean.. why worry about a broken glass or something? It's dumb.
Anyways.. back to the animation thing. So I'm nervous for everybody else! Go figure. I actually feel more anxious for them than I did for myself. I want to see that these people that I have bonded with keep going like I am! I never realized how much closer I am to the people here than with people in highschool. I assumed it was because all of the people I was in class with already had something in common. We were striving and improving together, each of us with the love for art. Some more passionate than others but being one of those people in an artistic environment really helped me bloom I think P: I just want these people to be with me further....
Other good news? I'm probably going to be interning for the summer at the animation studio Triangle/SpinPro in Toronto. I've been emailing the head of the company Nigel and the woman who takes care of Interns back and forth so I'm going in Tuesday to talk with her and as she said "make sure it meets my expectations". I'm really excited. After college having already worked in a animation studio will help me in finding a job.. in an animation studio. And I may even be able to continue to work there because they love me ever so much P:
I don't want school to be over though. I don't want to lose touch with all these people. I want them all to continue. I hope everything goes well for them. I'm worried about Rachel, who hasn't gotten a letter and Cassandra and Mat ): I just wish my whole class could be in! ;3;
Uhm.. I have a lot of art that I do but don't have anything scanned in as I haven't been digital painting or anything recently because I've been doing so much traditional works but I will show you some stuff from my portfolio that helped me get into the program.
Some Portfolio art
It's life drawing soo HOMG neked. These were like collage pages I put together for more pieces for my portfolio so they aren't my best life drawings since my best I put in as seperate pieces by themselves. These are gestures ranging from 30 seconds to 5 minutes. Although I usually don't draw for the full 5 minutes and stop between 3-4 for gestures they are still labeled with the full aloted time.
I thought it was an interesting time to update just because so much has been happening with me lately. First off, let me just say that I made it into animation!!!! I'm very proud of myself and very excited to be able to do what so many try to do and I am one of them. And I only had to take fundamentals once. At first the thought of taking fundamentals was frightening to me. Like "I'm not good enough to do this so I have to take another course prior to what I want to do? How upsetting" But once in fundamentals, I really really liked it and enjoyed it and discovered how little I knew. Taking the course taught me so much about what I am capable of and I picked up so many neat tricks that the year was definately useful. I also discovered that almost like 90% of animation kids HAVE taken fundamentals BEFORE animation so it's not like I was some sort of freak. I also discovered that SOOOOOO many people have taken it more than once. A lot of my class is on their second time around. I know of a few on their third... I was told the record was six years before getting in.
I got my acceptance on Monday night. I only know of 5 or 6 or so other people from my class who got the acceptance. That leaves like 24 other people that I know out in the cold, shaking in their boots, waiting till Saturday night, the official day we are to know our results. After I realized that all those other people didn't get acceptances I lost my excitement. These people that I know and care about who have the same dream as I do waiting for their moment that may not come. Before this year, I would have just been like, ah fuck that I'm in and I rock and I don't care what happens to those other people cause my future is set. Now? My stomach feels upset just thinking that I may not be able to spend the next 4 years of my life with these people. I was curious as to know what happened from last year to this year and I can only assume.. That I've changed as a person. I've never believed that people can change.. and that people don't REALLY change. But if that's the case, why am I so different from what I was before. I made a conscious choice near the beginning of the year to enjoy the year and have more fun and to not get angry about things. I didn't really think that I was changing myself, just trying to benefit myself to try and have a better time. I tried to be more relaxed about things and adopted a "Dau" kind of attitude. If something of mine was broken by someone (it seemed to happen a lot for some reason) i didnt get angry, I just told them not to worry about it, it could be fixed (: I haven't gotten angry all year while I've been at school and I've really just found that being a calmer person is better for me. I think.. better mental health? Rather than getting angry and always trying to challenge things. I haven't had to pick any battles or anythign because there's been no conflict. I haven't become a pushover.. I just let those stupid little things slide. I mean.. why worry about a broken glass or something? It's dumb.
Anyways.. back to the animation thing. So I'm nervous for everybody else! Go figure. I actually feel more anxious for them than I did for myself. I want to see that these people that I have bonded with keep going like I am! I never realized how much closer I am to the people here than with people in highschool. I assumed it was because all of the people I was in class with already had something in common. We were striving and improving together, each of us with the love for art. Some more passionate than others but being one of those people in an artistic environment really helped me bloom I think P: I just want these people to be with me further....
Other good news? I'm probably going to be interning for the summer at the animation studio Triangle/SpinPro in Toronto. I've been emailing the head of the company Nigel and the woman who takes care of Interns back and forth so I'm going in Tuesday to talk with her and as she said "make sure it meets my expectations". I'm really excited. After college having already worked in a animation studio will help me in finding a job.. in an animation studio. And I may even be able to continue to work there because they love me ever so much P:
I don't want school to be over though. I don't want to lose touch with all these people. I want them all to continue. I hope everything goes well for them. I'm worried about Rachel, who hasn't gotten a letter and Cassandra and Mat ): I just wish my whole class could be in! ;3;
Uhm.. I have a lot of art that I do but don't have anything scanned in as I haven't been digital painting or anything recently because I've been doing so much traditional works but I will show you some stuff from my portfolio that helped me get into the program.
Some Portfolio art
It's life drawing soo HOMG neked. These were like collage pages I put together for more pieces for my portfolio so they aren't my best life drawings since my best I put in as seperate pieces by themselves. These are gestures ranging from 30 seconds to 5 minutes. Although I usually don't draw for the full 5 minutes and stop between 3-4 for gestures they are still labeled with the full aloted time.