Books books books
Last night I went to the libary and got a ton of books. A couple were on self-injury-I started both of them. It was weird-I kept thinking, aaah! that's me! and that's me too!! I mean, yeah, it is more common than people would think, and I know that, but there are some personal accounts of self-mutilation (god, that sounds so bad lol its not really that bad, i swear! well... i guess it depends on the person actually) that relate so well to me. It's weird-like the person says exactly what I am feeling-not simply 'i need to get this out, this is my way of doing it' but more of exact feeling, exact emotion. Crazy! Kinda sad to know that people think like me, in that perspective, just because it makes you feel special to be a little different, yet it makes me feel so much better-to know that since there are other 'cases', there is more attention focused on this type of problem, and we will finally figure out where I stand. Finally free, in a way. Feels good.
I'm reading soooo many books right now. I started Tuck Everlasting because I want to see the movie but feel like it just wouldn't be right if I didnt' read the book first hehe Shouldn't take me too long-short book with big lettering, and easy to read hehe I'm loving it so far. :)
I loooove reading. Its a whole other outlet for me, another place to go when I can't get out of the house physically. But now is the problem of distraction. I keep feeling like there's something else I should be doing. Although all I want to do is read. But then, while I'm reading, I'm testing myself at the same time, saying to myself "are you suuuuure you like reading? this is your free time... you won't have much more..." i'm driving myself crazy with these fucking voices!!!!!! I wish I could just get drawn into the books and that's it. Be as excited while I'm reading them as when I first pick them up at the libary! Gah!!!
Oh well...
It hasn't gotten to the point where I throw the book down and scream, so I'm guessing that's a good thing haha
oooooooooooooh I looooove booooooooks!!!!!! hehehe
I'm reading soooo many books right now. I started Tuck Everlasting because I want to see the movie but feel like it just wouldn't be right if I didnt' read the book first hehe Shouldn't take me too long-short book with big lettering, and easy to read hehe I'm loving it so far. :)
I loooove reading. Its a whole other outlet for me, another place to go when I can't get out of the house physically. But now is the problem of distraction. I keep feeling like there's something else I should be doing. Although all I want to do is read. But then, while I'm reading, I'm testing myself at the same time, saying to myself "are you suuuuure you like reading? this is your free time... you won't have much more..." i'm driving myself crazy with these fucking voices!!!!!! I wish I could just get drawn into the books and that's it. Be as excited while I'm reading them as when I first pick them up at the libary! Gah!!!
Oh well...
It hasn't gotten to the point where I throw the book down and scream, so I'm guessing that's a good thing haha
oooooooooooooh I looooove booooooooks!!!!!! hehehe