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So Everything is officaily my favourite song on this planet. I mind as well start off with ahappy moment mind you I am actually in a half decent good mood. A little upset but a little giddy just knowing something.
Anyways life is alright for now. I got my heart broken extremely bad, like I'm still not over it and it's been almost a month now. I will always care about her but I don't think I could ever go back to her, mind you I found someone new that I know will treat me with respect and treat me like I should be treated, not to sound selfish or anything but honestly I have be a great friend to a lot of people who treat me like shit I believe I deserve someone who won't hurt me as much as she did. I know things will happen and come up but I believe that her and I could get through it. I don't believe that we could even loose our friendship if that's all we were going to be. Anyways she's an amazing girl with the most amazing personality and she's responsible even when she acts weird and like a kid she holds her head high except when she says something geeky. She has the most amazing laugh and smile and her eyes just light up everything. I swear she fucking lights up my heart when she just looks at me for two seconds or less. I get THE worst butterflies ever around her. I'm not going to call this love because I wouldn't want anything to happen between us I like her a lot and I know she's not over her ex and I'm not over mine. I would NEVER want to screw up anything. We smoke pot together sometimes and she loved by all, I can only describe her in one word, Everything. Not the song, well the song and she is everything I have ever found in someone. She acts like a dork to make people laugh she says the right things to me, she has the courage, (most of the time) to say what she really means. Everything about her makes me go nuts over her. On Canada Day I believe she said it by accident and she just meant it as a joke but she accidentally said "I love you" to me, I almost dropped to the ground. I was so light-headed and my knees were so weak and I was shocked. I'm pretty sure she was joking but when I asked her about it when she ran off with blushed cheeks she said "That wasn't supposed to be said yet." I was confused at first and then I aksed her "You expected to love me??" and she replied with "Yes." I was like..."WHAT??" I totally dropped my jaw in amazment. I wanted to talk to her more about it to know for sure, but I didn't get the chance. People kept showing up and interupting so I just left it. I stayed at her place that nigth and we just passed out when we got home. In the morning things we in a way awckward, we barely said anything to each other. I didn't bother to rbing anything up because I knew it was her ex-girlfriend who called her in the morning and gave her a guilt trip. I kind of figured something like that was going to happen sooner or later. Anyways I have been rambling on about her and I'm sure you guys want me to shut up about her lol. Well I will stop talking about her...for now haha.
My family is getting better. I'm still planning to move out as soon as I graduate. I'm searching for a job this week when I have the patience and confidence I need. Anyways I think I'm going to have a smoke and then go pass out. I will update later.
-Lishy [Happy.for.a.little.while]
P.S. Well I'm not having a smoke yet, I have to stay up and wait to call her so I might add some quizzes or something.
Anyways life is alright for now. I got my heart broken extremely bad, like I'm still not over it and it's been almost a month now. I will always care about her but I don't think I could ever go back to her, mind you I found someone new that I know will treat me with respect and treat me like I should be treated, not to sound selfish or anything but honestly I have be a great friend to a lot of people who treat me like shit I believe I deserve someone who won't hurt me as much as she did. I know things will happen and come up but I believe that her and I could get through it. I don't believe that we could even loose our friendship if that's all we were going to be. Anyways she's an amazing girl with the most amazing personality and she's responsible even when she acts weird and like a kid she holds her head high except when she says something geeky. She has the most amazing laugh and smile and her eyes just light up everything. I swear she fucking lights up my heart when she just looks at me for two seconds or less. I get THE worst butterflies ever around her. I'm not going to call this love because I wouldn't want anything to happen between us I like her a lot and I know she's not over her ex and I'm not over mine. I would NEVER want to screw up anything. We smoke pot together sometimes and she loved by all, I can only describe her in one word, Everything. Not the song, well the song and she is everything I have ever found in someone. She acts like a dork to make people laugh she says the right things to me, she has the courage, (most of the time) to say what she really means. Everything about her makes me go nuts over her. On Canada Day I believe she said it by accident and she just meant it as a joke but she accidentally said "I love you" to me, I almost dropped to the ground. I was so light-headed and my knees were so weak and I was shocked. I'm pretty sure she was joking but when I asked her about it when she ran off with blushed cheeks she said "That wasn't supposed to be said yet." I was confused at first and then I aksed her "You expected to love me??" and she replied with "Yes." I was like..."WHAT??" I totally dropped my jaw in amazment. I wanted to talk to her more about it to know for sure, but I didn't get the chance. People kept showing up and interupting so I just left it. I stayed at her place that nigth and we just passed out when we got home. In the morning things we in a way awckward, we barely said anything to each other. I didn't bother to rbing anything up because I knew it was her ex-girlfriend who called her in the morning and gave her a guilt trip. I kind of figured something like that was going to happen sooner or later. Anyways I have been rambling on about her and I'm sure you guys want me to shut up about her lol. Well I will stop talking about her...for now haha.
My family is getting better. I'm still planning to move out as soon as I graduate. I'm searching for a job this week when I have the patience and confidence I need. Anyways I think I'm going to have a smoke and then go pass out. I will update later.
-Lishy [Happy.for.a.little.while]
P.S. Well I'm not having a smoke yet, I have to stay up and wait to call her so I might add some quizzes or something.