Epiphany
I am deeply saddened by the shallowness of today’s youth. (including myself) It really hit me today. I was browsing my friends’ journals on livejournal.com and there is this guy that I thought was just perfect (SO CUTE) was talking about 2 communities. So I go to them to see what all the hype is about. They’re some sort of hotness communites. Only The hottest people get in, and you have to be rated and accepted into their little “beauty” club. It was filled with arrogant, stuckup, women, and gay, self-absorbed men. you know the type. The girls that wont date a guy unless it boosts her reputation in some way, or unless they’re rich and powerful (and handsome). I am guessing it’s places like this that egotistical, conceited, pretentious males and females meet and fall desperately in love. Pathetic, really. I was, though, very suprized to see my new lj friend on there. I don’t want to get into that though.
But anyways, right after I barfed up the 5 cookies I ate tonight, I decided to check my profile on HotOrNOt.com. That’s when it hit me, I had an epiphany.
In some way, shape or form, I am guilty of the same thing that I was accusing all of the other people of. Just by posting my picture on a web site and allowing people to “rate” my appearance, I had become my own biggest fear. I was becoming fake in that I actually cared what other people thought of me. It’s like I NEEDED the ego-boost to live or something. I am quitting my account on hotornot as soon as this entry is done, and I’m going to take more care of what I say, and especially what websites I join when I am bored.
Lord,
Never Let me join anything as sad as that.....ever again. And please never let me care what others think of me......ever again.
Amen
Alright, I think I’m officially back to being me again. (Thank God) :)
But anyways, right after I barfed up the 5 cookies I ate tonight, I decided to check my profile on HotOrNOt.com. That’s when it hit me, I had an epiphany.
In some way, shape or form, I am guilty of the same thing that I was accusing all of the other people of. Just by posting my picture on a web site and allowing people to “rate” my appearance, I had become my own biggest fear. I was becoming fake in that I actually cared what other people thought of me. It’s like I NEEDED the ego-boost to live or something. I am quitting my account on hotornot as soon as this entry is done, and I’m going to take more care of what I say, and especially what websites I join when I am bored.
Lord,
Never Let me join anything as sad as that.....ever again. And please never let me care what others think of me......ever again.
Amen
Alright, I think I’m officially back to being me again. (Thank God) :)