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You know what? I feel pretty good about myself and I am not sure why. I have been feeling better about the way I look. Now I know I will never look like I did when I was in high school and hell I did the math that was 12 years ago so why am I punishing myself? I have worked hard on not comparing myself to my friends whom I think are thinner and prettier then me, and I have become a little more secure in the fact that nolan is not going to take off with them, he is happy with me lumps and bumps and all.
I have been working on my writing again and have gotten further then I have in years I know that it still needs work but I am at least getting the rough draft down.
I really am not sure what is doing all this, part is the fact I have such supportive friends and they have put up with me for all these years. Nolan is being great with me right now and I really think the reaction I got from him in the dress I got for Capts wedding helped and I guess taking my medication properly again helps too.
I am really going to try hard to keep this line of thought going, I don't want to back slide. Next step is now to stop stressing when I go out into public this summer.