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i left this weekend....i think laura was the breaking the point...or my snapping at my managers or by realizing in an instance this wasnt the way things were supposed to be....maybe i realized ppl lie and i realized i just lost another person that was my past and kept me going.....she was great and i think in all the tears of american eagle jeans and 7-up.... i think losing her is killing me.....i dont have many ppl that get my past life which i thought was good but now i think i need ppl to understand....understand why it hurt me so long ago....why life crashed and why in another instant i lost another friend....im so sick of hearing about petty things when i look outside and realize we have so much more then most....i cant keep puttin friends in the ground and pushing ppl away and i cant keep feeling like i failed....i cant keep running past certain person and have that look like im sorry in their face but they still dont get that im so mad.....but then again i know nothing about life right