Realized He is GONE
well what to do now. life seems so unfair. my uncle is doing well.. this double lung transplant is really helping him out. a friend is gone.. and i finally realize that rob will never be back, but my firned said that he has to come back because i have his baby! A good friend of the familys passed away this week.. he didnt do anything to get shot, he was a nice guy a great person. I think it is funny how the police describe his killer. a black male, 6'1" 185 lbs.. that is all the police said.. then they were like he can be found in new castle, ambrige, beaver falls, or pittsburgh.. hello thats three conties..lawerence, beaver and allegheny. this is crazy life is crazy.
I do not want to do this, i miss my boo. i cry at night when i close my eyes missing his smile and beautiful face. i was in love and now my heart is shatered never again will i love i cant do this no more. we made love and created a child, our baby will be beautiful. why did he leave, will he ever come back i just dont understand he said that he loved me so. this is so crazy, insane, what is next for me to do? a single mom all alone? that is my problem i feel so alone i dont want to go on, by myself anymore. i told my mother this and she wants me to move back home but i cant live with my dad he is crazy and we dont get along. i wish that there was a way that he could just see my point of view and we could all just get along you know what i mean. everythign i say or do is wrong to him it is never right and i dont know why he cant see that i am trying my best to be the child that him and my mother wanted me to be. i am growing up fast and now i am having a child. i do not need my dad yelling at me i need someoen to help me with my baby. oh well who knows...
my mom is planning my baby shower.. she has created a "winnie the pooh" theme.. i dotn know if i like yet?!!!
I do not want to do this, i miss my boo. i cry at night when i close my eyes missing his smile and beautiful face. i was in love and now my heart is shatered never again will i love i cant do this no more. we made love and created a child, our baby will be beautiful. why did he leave, will he ever come back i just dont understand he said that he loved me so. this is so crazy, insane, what is next for me to do? a single mom all alone? that is my problem i feel so alone i dont want to go on, by myself anymore. i told my mother this and she wants me to move back home but i cant live with my dad he is crazy and we dont get along. i wish that there was a way that he could just see my point of view and we could all just get along you know what i mean. everythign i say or do is wrong to him it is never right and i dont know why he cant see that i am trying my best to be the child that him and my mother wanted me to be. i am growing up fast and now i am having a child. i do not need my dad yelling at me i need someoen to help me with my baby. oh well who knows...
my mom is planning my baby shower.. she has created a "winnie the pooh" theme.. i dotn know if i like yet?!!!